Love Conquers

although we are not together right now, 

it doesn't even meant a thing.

don't give up,

i love you has a true meaning, and holds all my feeling, just hope and hold on.

for love conquers all things

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all the things i've been dying to hear

i always remember when you whisper in my ear and speak softly,
i love your chuckles, your laugh..
and it's all the things i've been dying to hear...

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Move on

Everybody's telling me to just move on and forget about you. That's like a stab in the flesh, through and through. They don't understand how hard it is for me. That moving on are not just words but actions needing a lot of energy to expend on.

There's one thing I know for sure though. I'm still finding that one person who wouldn't leave my life just when I need her the most.

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You Will Never be Alone

You will never be alone, okay?
there are will be
someone.. somewhere cares about you.
and wants you to be alright.

even it is not your mom, dad, sister, girlfriend, boyfriend and else.


remember that you are loved
even if it's only the random person you met on the internet.


you are loved...
Don't forget that.

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Keep Struggle

I promises you as long as you say,
"I'm trying"
and i will put that things on to were we belong. 
and before you say that, i should hold my head up and say,
"Goodbye"

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Blessing

These days, are too worth it to filled with tears and sorrows.

These days, are yours.

Blessings happen everytime.

The fact that you were born,

is a proof that God have a plan for you.

The path may seem unclear right now.

but one day, you will see,

that all came before,

was truly meant to be.

stay if you would to stay.

struggling if they/it are worth to be fight for.

pray for your enemy.

forgive all fault that something did to you.

God wrote a book named life.

That's all you need to know.

but yet i know...

my story was written a long time ago.

God only writes best sellers.

so be proud of who you are.

stop becoming what you should do.

and become what you are.

I'm very thankful to have you in my life, Vherlly.

even it almost unmeant to you.

I'm having you as my blessing in my each day i wake up from my bed.

:D thx God.

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Music I kept Playing in My Head

and this is the tune i sing my heart just for you.

And as we walk hand in hand you and I, we hear the music of the wind and leaves, and our hearts join in and our souls will sing in harmony. 

For we have found each other, and as we slowly ease back the layers of pain left by others, we will dance to the sweet sounds of healing. 

And we are one song closer to what we both desire.

I've been searching for that place, and have even - in flashes of seconds - entered it. To realise that it is, after all, the pain that makes me feel alive; as much as the joy and pleasure do. 

I just want in there.

Music I keep Playing in my head after this are you.

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Unlike

Look I can unlike your Status on Facebook.

I just can't unlike you...

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Promise

Janji memang sangat mudah diucapkan. terkadang satuannya hanya satu dua hari, lalu lupa.
janji pada kamu. kenapa sebegitu susahnya.
mungkin lebih baik memang saya tidak pernah janji apa-apa, jika akhirnya saya termakan janji saya sendiri,

tahukah kamu?
saya tahu persis rasanya,
seperti tidak ingin lupa.
Dan janji saya untuk tidak akan meninggalkan kamu.

kini saya tahu kenapa saya menjanjikan hal itu.
mengapa sebegitu yakinnya saya akan hal itu.
Mengapa seolah itu terlontar begitu saja dari ulut saya.
karena saya menggenggam kamu begitu erat. bukan dalam tangan saya.
saya menggenggam kamu erat disini. lekat-lekat di hati saya.

:(

NB: Saya merasa hal yang kontradiktif terjadi pada seseorang yang dulu saya kenal baik.
yang pernah saya tanyai, " apakah kamu sayang dia?" dan dia menjawab tidak.
whatever, apa motifnya sekarang dia berbalik saya tidak tahu.
Mungkin dia merasa saya sudah kalah, dia yang menang.
Haha, tidak, kamu salah. kamu salah jika kamu menilai saya akan hancur.
tolak ukurnya bukan tangis saya, atau tawa kamu.
Tolak ukur semua ini adalah senyum orang yang saya sayang disana.


Untuk pria itu.
Janjikan saya satu hal saja.
Buat dia bahagia.

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Lily..

Bolelah kuceritakan sebuah kisah lama,

kisah yang belum pernah kuceritakan sebelumnya

tentang hitam dan putihnya duniaku.

serita tentang seorang gadis yang bandel

yang hinggap di kepalaku dan seakan tidak lepas.

orang bilang sayang itu wajar,

tidak perlu bilang saya akan bersamanya selamanya

tidak perlu bilang saya mencintainya sampai akhir waktu.

itu hanya ada di roman picisan, atau lagu gombal para anak band jaman sekarang.

saya bilang cinta adalah cinta.

Tuhan menciptakan emosi

salah satunya cinta

Tuhan menciptakan kamu.

untuk saya?

bukan..

Tuhan mencipta kamu.

supaya saya bisa mensyukuri kehadiranmu.

supaya saya bisa mencium aroma pagi,

saat kamu tersenyum, terlihat sibuk dengan pekerjaanmu,

dan saya melamunkanmu.

bersama saya, tertawa bersama,

dan saya bertanya,

"Kamu suka bunga lily?"

"Ya" jawabmu singkat.

"Kenapa?"

"Karena bunga lily sangat indah?, bagaimana denganmu?" dan kamu akan tersenyum dan mengerling.

"Alasan kita sama..."

tak banyak waktu untuk membiarkan bunga itu mekar

cukup tiga kali siram. tidak banyak waktu.

dan waktu yang bergulir menjadi milikku,

aku dan kamu..

Waktu berubah sedemikian cepat

merubah kisahmu dan aku,

dan aku akan berjumpa dengan tokoh-tokoh baru yang akan kujumpai di berbagai tempat,

yang akan menggantikanmu sebagai model di dalam tulisanku.

aku bahkan tidak dapat merangkai imajinasiku dengan kenyataan.

dimana aku belum juga bisa menulis tentangmu.

cerita tentangmu terbengkalai di ujung kamar

terpojok sepi, membiru.

aku abaikan semua.

kata-katamu..

merangkai penggalan kata yang hilang.

ini tentang tiga kata itu

kata yang tidak pernah saya ungkapkan lagi.

"Saya sayang kamu"

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A Little Gift for Valentine Day

I live through my dark existence
only to bask in your beauty
your eyes that shine like sapphires
your smile that brightens even my sad existence
I envy the wind that runs through your hair
that touches your lips...

I long to touch you...
to hold you in my arms but I cannot
for your heart belongs to another so,

I can only love you from a far
your friendship means more to me
than anything this world provides
but like an angel you touched my heart
in a way that I've never felt before
cause I've never known what love is until this day

I know that we are only friends
but my heart wishes it to be more
so I will still hope and dream
that one day I can feel your lips pressed to mine
to hold you in my arms and say,

"I love you"

PS: i am sorry for everything yet i can't tell you that.

no matter what is happen next, i'll grateful for every moment i spent with you.

and even though i keep fumbling for the right words,

all i want to say was thank you.

Happy Valentine's Day

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