to leave or to stay

bertahan dan tinggal vs meninggalkan.

apa yang dibilang oleh teman saya bahwa saya bodoh.

buat kamu, apa yang tidak mungkin saya lakukan.

bahwa hanya ada 1 wanita yang bisa buat saya bilang saya sayang kamu.

dan memang begitu seharusnya kata otak saya.

kamu ibarat tembok yang kuat, teguh dan tidak dapat ditembus.

dan saya hanya orang yang melempari tembok itu dengan lumpur.

apakah tembok itu akan runtuh?

tidak, saya hanya buat bekas di tembok itu dengan nama saya.

asalkan saya tidak terlupa. itu saja.

apa lagi yang bisa saya bilang.

saya sayang kamu, apa kamu percaya?

saya rindu kamu setengah mati, apa kamu perhatikan?

lepas dari kenyataan itu, saya memberi hati saya keleluasaan

keleluasaan untuk sebentar lepas dari bayang kamu.

kemana saja asalkan tidak ada kamu.

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The End

It weeps for me late at night, when sleep does not come easily.

simple things, I miss oyu.

yeah you read wrong it.

like so, sometimes words come complicated for me.

seems like there is a sin in every words spoken out from my tongue to you.

sometimes it is true that i shouldn't be honest to say every words on my mind.

i miss every tuesday i had.

i miss how i saw you smile.

i miss every little bit moment like a child miss her chocolate.

and the worse things is that you might not want to hear this anymore.

God have given so many morning to spent without and within you.

i'm still alive at the end.

after all the sufferings and sorrows,

you ruin my life.

and i hate you. much than ever. to make me can't forget you.

done. i'm sick of it.

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Fake

true love isn't found..
it's built.
but i did slowly fade
it's gone and slowly someone will take my place.

but please.
we'll have to prove them wrong..

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week 35

Life is a battlefield and we are all a soldier
and you know what made a good soldier?
It's not bitterness, rageand thirst for vengeance
but the ability to stay calmin every circumstances
and the strong will to survive...

Some of us, I believe,
might have gone thru that before,
maybe around their age, or older, maybe younger...

depend on that i'm survive,
going and bounce from one week to another.
and i'm grateful for that.

All I want you to know is,
that I know that "I" am not alone,
that life can be rough and constant taunt can be tough
but I got to hold on for you.
cos I believe the good things are yet to happen.
if it will be come true or not,
it doesn't really matter again.

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