| Chute de vous

I Will Regret

Despite the cheating, lies and the way things didn't work out, I still love you for who you are, and whether you willingly admit it, I know there is a place in your heart for me.
You lock it away and sometimes disregard it, its not enough to reject other by, but it's enough to remember me by. Even though I'm not always there, and the intricate hardships that complicate my life, are not your burden to carry. I feel like you see my pain, and have a subtle yet distinct way of loving me, which brightens my day when I'm feeling low.

You warm my heart when you tell me I am good enough, and although it's not openly said, their is a kind of love that ties us together, but equally drags us apart. It's a safe kind of love, one that can be intercepted or temporarily forgotten. But that can always be redeemed and replenished. You are a beautiful mistake to me, and I know you think I don't see it. Your beauty and kind soul, but I see it more than anyone. And feel like you have the right to know. I never am open about my thoughts and the things that I keep locked away, are often for good reasons. But you are that beautiful someone, who to me, despite relationships, distractions or consequence, have a place in my heart, and I love you for the person that you are. I won't ever ask for your forever, or even a functional relationship. You and I work differently to that, and at the moment, at this stage in life, where we both are, it somehow works. Amongst the mess of uncomplicating everything that is thrown at us, we are eternally together. And if for some reason, if one day you do meet that someone who fulfills you, and I am replaced, At least I told you what was real for me and all your worth. I will regret missing you.

I completely understand these parts: Until we had that stupid fight, and you didn’t call me back. For a day, and then a week. Two month passed. I chose to cry instead of loosing my pride, so I didn’t call you once. Maybe I never had you. I’ve been trying to forget you, but I still remember you every day, every sad song, every romantic movie- you never came back for me, you never gave me a last kiss. You never fought for me.

And it hurts. But I'll be fine. I read a post today on 9gag.com and in the end it said: "why should I be sad? I lost one who never loved me, she loved someone who really loved her."
And it's so true. And beautiful.
However, I can't say she never loved me but I can't get the way he acted out of my head. I mean; that must say something right? Yes I made some stupid mistakes, but I fought for her.

don't say a such thing

You can say sorry a million times,
say i love you as much as you want..
say whenever you want.

but if you're not going to prove the things you say are true, then don't say anything at all.