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2012-02-09T21:06:00.000-08:00

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Wherever You Go, I Go...

2012-02-06T19:51:00.000-08:00

Lovesick

2012-02-02T17:36:00.000-08:00

we are the lovesick. the fearless ones. the never giving up.
the hearts undone. sick with the desire to love. to live so far
beyond the boundaries given to us. we are the fence-hopping
fools who never stopped to read the signs. the ones that left
the world behind. like dreams we've drawn in neon light. just
moments in the sea of time. we are the lost ones wandering.
the soon to be smoldering. last to be found. the first to fall and
fail to fly then shatter on the ground. we are the rebels running
wild through a darkness that can swallow us. but we've set fire
to our souls. burning brilliant blinding gold. the flames that illuminate
our lonely road. our futures holding fates untold. we are the
ever-refusing to fold. to fade away or worse to lose. the few that
bend and break apart the cages of our rules. born desperate for the
promise of the mystery unknown. we are the lovesick. and just like
the sun we will always rise. hope still shining in our eyes.. - Jason Reeves.

I have the courage to love.. And I will love you forever.

Before I Die

2012-01-25T23:23:00.000-08:00

Before i die.
i wish that i can donate some part of my blood.
so at least my blood could enter your heart.
stay there.

where i couldn't.

Thank you God. for remind me of her.
every seconds of my life.

I Like That Shit

2012-01-23T01:53:00.000-08:00

Thank You Lord

2012-01-15T19:19:00.000-08:00

I will let my worries go.
I will trust God completely.
I am unconditionally loved.
I will let God control and let my way.
I am refused to let anxiety rule me.
I will ask God to put my broken piece together,

Thank you LORD. That I can still see the one I love,and the one who love me, be with them,

even it hurts. even there's no one stay.

You are there. You are with me.

Amen.

Where God Lives

2012-01-04T03:27:00.001-08:00

"Sebab itu janganlah kamu kuatir akan hari besok, karena hari besok mempunyai kesusahannya sendiri. Kesusahan sehari cukuplah untuk sehari."

(Matius 6:34)

Saya mengerti sekarang. atas semua apa yang saya keluhkan.

tentang kehidupan saya yang "seakan" saya buat amburadul

Saya kadang bertanya kepada Dia, kenapa saya.

Saya mengkritisi Dia.

dan seolah saya menang

Dia tidak menjawab saya.

dalam satu dan lain hal saya menginginkan Tuhan.

Saya sungguh ingin Dia ada, menjawab semua doa saya.

Menghapus semua air mata dengan tangannya.

lalu datang ayat itu.

di halaman kecil alkitab lusuh yang saya baca lamat-lamat di kereta.

sekarang saya tahu bahwa Engkau benar-benar ada.

dan Engkau menjawab semuanya.

................................................................................................................................................

Tuhan, terima kasih atas kehidupan yang masih engkau beri.

atas hal-hal baru dalam kehidupan saya.

atas semua kasih sayang dalam Natal ini.

atas semua dekapan keluarga yang masih bisa saya rasakan.

atas dia yang telah (pernah) Engkau hadirkan dalam hidup saya.

Terima Kasih Tuhan.

17-12-2011

2011-12-17T04:03:00.000-08:00

serumit tapi nampak sederhana.

nama saya tanpa malu-malu ditulis dalam aksara mati dan asing.

hanya kesepian yang lebih mahal - saya mudah ditemui di mulut pendusta.

saya hidup dalam kekejian dan kemarahan.

saya lelucon bagi orang yang setengah mati berusaha mencintai saya.

untuk apa?

saya hidup dalam lemari dan atau peti mati- yang kuncinya belum jadi.
saya hanyalah rahasia yang diidap oleh pengidap amnesia seperti kamu dan saya.

What I Feel

2011-12-08T22:22:00.000-08:00

quoted from: http://theclassyissue.tumblr.com/#13

TV

2011-12-04T05:54:00.000-08:00

apa yang terjadi jika suami istri dan suami berebut remote TV?

Sepasang suami istri berebut REMOTE Tv si Suami senangny BOLA & si istri senangnya MASAK,suara Tv kedengarannya gak karuan !
"1kg daging ayam DI TENDANG RONALDO,
5 siung bawang BERDIRI OFF SIDE,
Daging di rebus OLEH WASIT,
... Bumbu yg telah d haluskan DI KENAI KARTU KUNING,
BOLA DI BAWA lalu di kukus setengah matang,
KIPER dipotong2 lalu ditusuk jadi sate,
HAKIM GARIS MENGANGKAT BENDERA tanda ayam sudah matang"

:)

God is Dead? (9gag-er)

2011-11-28T19:57:00.000-08:00

Susan dan Wulan

2011-11-26T21:34:00.001-08:00

Seorang polisi sedang bertanya kepada terdakwa, seorang istri yang melakukan pemukulan kepada suami.
Polisi : "apakah yang di katakan suami kepada anda pagi ini"
Istri : "dia mengatakan, 'sekarang sudah jam berapa Susan?"
Polisi : "lalu kenapa kamu menjadi marah dan memukuli suami anda karena pertanyaan itu."
Istri : "karena nama saya wulan"

Amarah Kepada Tuhan

2011-11-08T07:20:00.000-08:00

Anda mungkin marah kepada Tuhan,
karena Dia membiarkan Anda kehilangan.
Anda mungkin meragukan kerahiman Tuhan.
Anda merasa Tuhan tidak ada untuk Anda.
seakan-akan Tuhan mengkhianati Anda,
padahal Anda telah berjuang untuk hidup benar.
telah berdoa dengan setia.
dan percaya bahwa Dia akan melindungi Anda.

Biarkanlah kamu mengacungkan tinju kemarahan, dan bilang bahwa Tuhan acuh, Tuhan tidak ada.
Pergilah bila memang harus demikian.
Namun, jangan pernah menyimpulkan,
bahwa tempat baru Anda yang subur dan rindang.
adalah tempat dimana Anda menemukan diri Anda sendiri.
dalam tempat akhir dalam perziarahan menuju pemahaman.
kecuali bila kesadaran awal Anda merupakan kebenaran satu-satunya.

Bukalah salah satu bilik kecil dari jiwa Anda,
janganlah cepat-cepat mengambil kesimpulan.

diambil (diterjemahkan dari):
Finding Your Place in the Universe.
Robert J.C Miller.

Cinta dan Kentut

2011-11-03T09:34:00.000-07:00

CINTA dan KENTUT tidak bisa ditahan, keduanya bisa menjadi lega bila terlaksana.

CINTA tertahan = sengsara, KENTUT ditahan = menderita

Kalau CINTA dan KENTUT keras bersuara, tentu perasaan kita lega.
...

CINTA terkesan malu-malu tapi mau, KENTUT bikin malu-maluin baunya.

CINTA tanpa rasa, bukan CINTA namanya, KENTUT tak berbau, bukan KENTUT namanya.

CINTA itu rapuh, KENTUT itu bau.

CINTA itu halus, KENTUT itu virus.

CINTA diam-diam membuat orang mabuk kepayang, KENTUT diam-diam membuat orang mabuk kepalang.

CINTA bagi kebanyakan orang muda, "Ahhh, CINTA monyet...!"
KENTUT didepan banyak orang, "Sialan, monyet lu...!"

CINTA dan KENTUT sama-sama sering dicari:
Kalau sudah CINTA: "Dimana engkau duhai kekasih?"
Kalo sudah KENTUT: "Siapa nih yang KENTUT? Hayoo, ngaku gak...?!!!"

CINTA berlebih membuat orang terbuai, KENTUT berlebih membuat orang terkulai.

CINTA menyatukan persepsi, KENTUT menyatukan emosi.

Randomly Picture I Want

2011-10-28T09:15:00.000-07:00

Blessing

2011-10-23T01:52:00.000-07:00

These days, are too worth it to filled with tears and sorrows.

These days, are yours.

Blessings happen everytime.

The fact that you were born,

is a proof that God have a plan for you.

The path may seem unclear right now.

but one day, you will see,

that all came before,

was truly meant to be.

stay if you would to stay.

struggling if they/it are worth to be fight for.

pray for your enemy.

forgive all fault that something did to you.

God wrote a book named life.

That's all you need to know.

but yet i know...

my story was written a long time ago.

God only writes best sellers.

so be proud of who you are.

stop becoming what you should do.

and become what you are.

I'm very thankful to have you in my life, Vherlly.

even it almost unmeant to you.

I'm having you as my blessing in my each day i wake up from my bed.

:D thx God.

Love Defined by..

2011-10-18T20:29:00.000-07:00

A 5 year old Girl -"Love is when he takes my chocolates and comes back with its wraper

A 10 year old Girl -"Love is when we work for a project and he intensionally touch my hand trying to get a pen !"

A 15 year old Girl -" Love is when we get caught bunking and he takes the blame "

An 18 year ...old Girl -" Love is when at farewell he hugs me saying ' keep in touch' !"

A 21 year old Girl -" Love is when he runs from college with me just for a week long trip together !!"

A 26 year old -"Love is when he proposes me with a rose and makes a fool of himself, and says 'U know i love You' "

A 35 year old woman -"love is when he cleans the house seeing me tired"

A 50 year old woman -" love is when he is ill and still cracks a joke just me laugh !

A 60 year old woman -'love is when he is taking his last breath and saying, ' I
am glad as you know what love is,,'and leaves me with a tear forever"

LOVE IS A SUPREME FEELING .. ♥

taken from:
http://tinyurl.com/62f6uz2

Music I kept Playing in My Head

2011-10-13T21:48:00.000-07:00

and this is the tune i sing my heart just for you.

And as we walk hand in hand you and I, we hear the music of the wind and leaves, and our hearts join in and our souls will sing in harmony.

For we have found each other, and as we slowly ease back the layers of pain left by others, we will dance to the sweet sounds of healing.

And we are one song closer to what we both desire.

I've been searching for that place, and have even - in flashes of seconds - entered it. To realise that it is, after all, the pain that makes me feel alive; as much as the joy and pleasure do.

I just want in there.

Music I keep Playing in my head after this are you.

5 Truths to share

2011-10-12T08:23:00.000-07:00

Pray Everyday.
Count your blessings to forget your problems.
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
There is no "Key" to happiness. The Door is already open.
Fear God who saves your soul, not those who can harm your body.

The Risk I Was Take

2011-10-10T19:41:00.000-07:00

I wonder.

how i stop smiling when i looked at you.

maybe that i'm so insecure in front of you.

have you ever waking up from your dream just to find that you find another dream in your dream?

one that you will never reach.

this is just what i felt about today.

about you.

i struggling..

everyday..

how i wish. i could tell myself not to loving you.

and think it will be different.

think that someday you willl realize.

how u took all my life for you to killed.

yes,

nobody says it was easy.

but i never thought it will be this hard..

how i wish to myself.

that someday.

I will be stand in front of you.

like nothing happened. just like you did.

and smile so widely.

how i tell myself not to loving you.

is just like i tell my lungs to stop breathe.

wind wind.. wind... i spell your name beneath it.

A Day with Celine :D

2011-10-10T08:52:00.000-07:00

This is the happy happy day.

I just meet my younger cousin, named celine
It's been so long since i meet her.
She's just 9 years old.
When we meet she's just alittle kid and now she's 9 years old!

and she asked me to make her an origami and i am so wanted to pinch her cheeks.
She is so cute..

Let me show you some of my photos with her :)

hahaha.. :D

she's so flirt when she did it.

AND TAKE A LOOK ON MY ORIGAMI created by HER.

She is so smart. she made some origami buttrfly.

I love butterfly and she love it too :)

beside that, i made some frog origami.
:D

and this ... :D

There some funny story to tell, include how she is so close to me as a brother and sister.

When I'm in her home.

and when she wants to sleep, she always ask me to read some story or tale, because if not she'll whimper and cry to me.

else, when i read it. in one minute she's already dead!

fall asleep.. she's cutest girl i've ever know..

haha. i remember when she's draw me this picture.

take a peek on this :D

a butterfly again...

ok, want to know what story between me and butterfly?

i tell you later.

Now, i will stay in salatiga for one more day.

and this week i felt like i'm almost forgot all of my troubles

because this lovely child :D

Celine yang unyu... Thank you yah.... :D

Besok kita maen origami lagi...

Unlike

2011-10-08T10:38:00.000-07:00

Look I can unlike your Status on Facebook.

I just can't unlike you...

Help Me. I miss You.

2011-10-07T05:09:00.000-07:00

i miss you.
and there is no F1 for help
There is no escape....

Promise

2011-10-03T17:03:00.001-07:00

Janji memang sangat mudah diucapkan. terkadang satuannya hanya satu dua hari, lalu lupa.
janji pada kamu. kenapa sebegitu susahnya.
mungkin lebih baik memang saya tidak pernah janji apa-apa, jika akhirnya saya termakan janji saya sendiri,

tahukah kamu?
saya tahu persis rasanya,
seperti tidak ingin lupa.
Dan janji saya untuk tidak akan meninggalkan kamu.

kini saya tahu kenapa saya menjanjikan hal itu.
mengapa sebegitu yakinnya saya akan hal itu.
Mengapa seolah itu terlontar begitu saja dari ulut saya.
karena saya menggenggam kamu begitu erat. bukan dalam tangan saya.
saya menggenggam kamu erat disini. lekat-lekat di hati saya.

:(

NB: Saya merasa hal yang kontradiktif terjadi pada seseorang yang dulu saya kenal baik.
yang pernah saya tanyai, " apakah kamu sayang dia?" dan dia menjawab tidak.
whatever, apa motifnya sekarang dia berbalik saya tidak tahu.
Mungkin dia merasa saya sudah kalah, dia yang menang.
Haha, tidak, kamu salah. kamu salah jika kamu menilai saya akan hancur.
tolak ukurnya bukan tangis saya, atau tawa kamu.
Tolak ukur semua ini adalah senyum orang yang saya sayang disana.

Untuk pria itu.
Janjikan saya satu hal saja.
Buat dia bahagia.

Dead End

2011-09-28T17:56:00.000-07:00

Saya tidak ingin lagi memulai.
Karena kamu bagian akhirnya.

Saya tidak lagi berharap.

Karena saat saya berharap, kamu ada disana.

Bleed

2011-09-23T05:07:00.000-07:00

Saya tidak selalu kuat.
Saya tidak selalu jadi orang yang benar.
Saya menjauh dari semua kebenaran itu.
Saya memilih diam.
Saya bukan pahlawan.
Saya bukan siapa-siapa.
Saya lari dari keadaan.
Dua tiga kali saya menabrakkan diri ke kesedihan saya yang mendalam.
Saya nyaris mati.
Saya mabuk, tidur di jalanan. Saya menggores tangan saya.

Saya menyebut nama kamu berharap kamu datang.
menjenguk saya,
menanyakan apa saya baik-baik saja.

Saya pernah sangat membenci kamu.
Saya bukan siapa-siapa buat kamu.
dan kamu yang dulu jadi "siapa-siapa" saya.
kamu yang dulu segalanya buat saya.
bukan lagi siapa-siapa.
Kamu tidak ada.

I am

2011-09-11T20:37:00.000-07:00

"I am made of glances across crowded rooms.

Of the closeness of strangers in a line outside a movie.

I’m made of dreams and memories.

I am made of misheard whispers in your ears.

I am made of the corners of your mouth. Smile.

I am made of ghost notes, from songs you never heard.

So forgive my absence. But I was never really here to begin with, anyway.

I'll hold your hand during the storm if you promise to sit back and enjoy it"

I love you.

-Unknown-

Seandainya

2011-09-06T20:23:00.000-07:00

Semua orang punya mimpi, harapan yang tidak pernah terealisasi dalam kehidupannya.
hasil akhir memang tidak selalu membenarkan bagaimana cara yang digunakan.
Bagaimana akhirnya saya dengan kamu,
tidak selalu membenarkan
bagaimana saya akan sekali lagi berjuang untuk kamu.

Saya berharap saya punya mesin waktu, yang bisa memutar bagian otak saya.
dimana saya akan berlutut kepada kamu, mengharap kamu kembali.
Saya berharap kamu kembali kepada saya, setidaknya katakan sesuatu pada saya,
Saya berharap kamu berkata "Saya hanya menceritakan ini padamu..."

karena saya akan benar-benar mendengarnya.

Mimpi

2011-08-14T21:56:00.001-07:00

"Impian selalu terwujud.
Mungkin bukan dalam kehidupanmu.
Namun itu terjadi...."-JJ

kau tidak pernah mengira ini akan terjadi padamu.
kau memikirkan seperti apa kemungkinannya,
kau terus menerus membayangkannya di benakmu,
mengganti-ganti skenarionya setiap waktu,
tapi jauh di lubuk hatimu yang terdalam, kau tidak benar-benar percaya ini akan terjadi,

Bagaimana kamu tahu?
Bagaimana kamu tahu bahwa ini bukan sekadar khayalan gila atau mimpi,
bayangan yang kau ciptakan di benakmu?
tidak ada gladi bersih dalam kehidupan demikian halnya dalam cinta.

dimanakah kita memulai dan kita mengakhiri?
kita dikendalikan oleh harapan, keinginan, kebutuhan, harapan, impian.
ketika itu semua lenyap, kita turut lenyap.
Saya sendiri telah dikendalikan oleh satu hal yang lebih kuat dari kematian.
cinta.
dan saya telah belajar, dengan sedikit bantuan. untuk merelakan kehidupan dan cinta,
untuk mengizinkan diri saya tiba di garis akhir.
dan untuk pertama kalinya saya memahami dirinya.
Saya paham diri saya juga.
dan di garis akhir hanya ada 2 pilihan.
membiarkan saya jatuh lagi dengan beberapa wanita, layaknya orang normal di luar sana.
atau membiarkan saya jadi legenda tak terdengar dengan mencintai kamu selamanya,
ironisnya, kadang saya hanya membiarkan pilihan terakhir yang masuk dalam otak saya.

Tulisan ini saya berikan bukan karena saya ingin terlihat baik di depan kamu.
Ini tentang bagaimana saya menjalani kehidupan saya.
ini juga bukan tentang menetapkan kenangan.
ini tentang bagaimana memberikan alasan yang baik bagi orang-orang untuk mengenang saya.

Ini akan sangat lama...
aku tak tahan lagi
memikirkan apakah kau mengerti
Aku hanya perlu sentuhan tanganmu
di balik pintu yang tertutup itu.
Valerie.

Agustus

2011-08-01T09:53:00.000-07:00

Sangat susah rasanya beranjak dari tempat tidur.

dari mimpi-mimpi yang ingin ditinggalkan

semua terjadi karena satu alasan bukan.

manusia datang dan pergi.

sebagian bukan karena keinginan kita sendiri.

sebagian tetap tinggal.

melamunkan mimpi kosong yang tak akan pernah jadi nyata.

Salah satu orang itu saya.

Bagaimana saya melewati agustus saya.

itu tidak penting.

Dari jauh saya tetap sama.

Orang yang melakukannya diam-diam.

saya dan kamu. apa bedanya..

ironis bagaimana saya melacak kamu dari jaringan twiter teman saya,

kemudian tertawa terbahak bahak tanpa tahu alasannya,

Kapan saya berhenti.

kapan saya bisa berhenti

Menulis tentang kamu, mengukir namamu di pohon dan meja yang pernah saya lewati.

Kapan saya bisa berhenti.

Melangkah tak tahu arah.

Untuk tersesat kembali menuju hatimu yang pernah saya coba diami.

PS: I love You.

I never expect that I'm so much crazy about you.I never hope that you will read this. hopefully don't.

Saya mencoba memulai semuanya kembali dari awal.

Merapikan kembali hati saya.

Bukan untuk meninggalkan.

Untuk menunggu kamu di bulan agustus versi saya.

Tigabelaspertigapuluh

2011-07-29T00:52:00.000-07:00

"A man admits when he wrong and stands his ground if he's right." -Unknown

Mungkin benar bahwa Tuhan memang adil, bahwa karma itu ada saya percaya,
bahwa apa yang saya tabur, itu juga yang saya tuai.
bahwa setiap air mata yang telah kamu teteskan untuk saya.
itu berubah menjadi kutukan yang menyakitkan, kembali bagi saya.

Manusia memang eksis dengan segala bentuk egoisme dan kesombongan.
bahwa saya tidak pernah mengakuinya.
bahwa segala bentuk perhatian dan kasih sayang kamu kepada saya terkadang tidak berarti apa-apa.
bahwa setiap tangis kamu, saya tidak mempedulikannya.
Ironis memang, bagaimana terkadang saya kasihan justru kepada diri saya sendiri.
saya kelabui diri saya sendiri.
saya abu-abu.

kepura-puraan saya, bahwa saya sungguh memerlukan kamu disaat saya sedang sendiri.
disaat tidak ada seorangpun yang mau menemani saya selain kamu,
dimana kita berbagi kisah dan kita berdansa tanpa ada sebuah musik pun yang mengalun.
disaat kamu aman di pelukan saya,
Itu kisah semu saya.

Maafkan saya, It's hard to remember that i did this in your past.
I shall never be forgiven.
Forgiving someone who has wronged you,
betrayed you, is a very hard thing to do.
But if we're meant to be together in one place when we meet.
would you play your song for me?
song that i will always memorize all the time.
and forgive me for all i've done?

His Story

2011-07-20T19:57:00.000-07:00

He is in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning mark of a slap on his own face.

He sighs.

He cries.

He puts the photo back to his pocket.

He pulls his hand back under the blanket.

He turns off the light, and sleeps.

He turns on the light, and sits up.

He's asleep.

He lost sleep.

He regrets treating him the way she treated him.

He cried again, and thought about a lot of things.

He wants to wake her up.

He wants to have a talk with her.

He doesn't want to push her anymore.

He slips the photo out. He wanted to cry, and he wanted to laugh.

It's a nicely taken photo of her.

He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.

Do you know the place between sleep and awake?

The place where you can still remember dreaming?

that's where I will always love you.that's where I will be waiting....

Duabelaspertigapuluh

2011-07-14T17:03:00.000-07:00

The person you hate most/ caused you a lot of pain

You gotta love livin', baby, 'cause dyin' is a pain in the ass.
Frank sinatra

this writing goes to you.
lady in my dream.. lady of my sunshine
this is not yearning of being lose you.
this is not all the pain i've felt before.
this is just the part of them.

when you saying something i can't understand
with my heart and my mind.
when you are never be there when i'm sad.
though i will still here be with you.
for ever.

yet i know love is not a calculation
of how much i give all i have to you.
how many attention and love i give to you
but i receive insatiable pain.
when you get me to start thinking of who i am.
as i am being nothing for you.
and it makes the stream of tears, drowning into my cheek.

you start hurting me.
not with only your words.
that even you won't see me at all.
this is an elusive dream for me.
that you will thinking of me.

do you know how hardest part of my single day.
that i keeping this feeling for ever.
and now i said.
i forgive you.
because the mean of forgive is for give
this is love i know. from you.
that love isn't always give and take.
even you sometimes forsake me. underestimate me.
for someone i didn't know whether he's really loving or you or not.

f*** it.
everyday.
i'm enchanted to meet you.
i hate for waking up. starting my day.
just to know that you are so far from me.

this time i knew it.

if someday i won't be there to guide you and someone will take it back.
this is small present from me.
He sent from heaven that i'd prayed to God for you.
I'll carved your name in every tree.
i named you in my every night. Thousands time.
you will surely loved because how lovely you are for me.

dream on baby.
this time.
i take this dream with me.
i take my dream with you.
i've already kept it on my mind so no one steal it.
no one..
will have the same dream with me.

yes, i'm broken.
fix me..

-you don't want to?

*no need to worry.
i love you with every single piece of my broken heart.

Blogger Friends

2011-07-13T09:36:00.000-07:00

This one for my Big Bro.

Sorry For late to Say. "Happy Birthday Again Mr.Denny Sitorus Torus"

This one from Gogo. :)

Sebelaspertigapuluh

2011-07-12T01:46:00.000-07:00

the deceased person i wished to meet.

setiap kali saya melihat foto keluarga saya serasa ada hal yang kurang.
kamu kak, Gabriel,orang yang tidak pernah saya temui sejak lahir.
saya hanya bisa dengar dari ibu saya.
kalau kamu meninggal sewaktu masih bayi.
ibu saya pernah bilang pada saya sewaktu saya masih kecil,
"Ibu menamainya Gabriel karena malaikat mengambilnya sewaktu masih kecil, tuhan terlalu sayang kepadanya, jadi dia dipanggil dalam usia yang masih muda"

kak, jika saya bisa bertemu kamu sekarang.
betapa saya berharap bisa dibelikan sepatu atau jam tangan baru.
bermain bola sepak atau bulutangkis di belakang rumah.
bercukur bersama.
kejar-kejaran di dalam rumah.
saling cerita tentang tipe wanita idaman kita.
seharusnya kamu 2 tahun lebih tua dari saya sekarang.
untuk berbagi kebahagiaan bersama saya.
seharusnya kamu disini kak, untuk bersama saya sewaktu saya patah hati pertama kali,
sewaktu saya wisuda, saat suatu saat saya menikah.

jika saya bertemu kamu di surga
seperti apa wajahmu?
jika saya punya kesempatan bertemu kamu?
bolehkah aku mengambil gambar kamu untuk saya beri ke ibu saya?
...

bolehkah saya memeluk kamu kak?

Paramore-You Are The Only Exception- Lyrics

2011-07-04T04:09:00.000-07:00

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
that she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

But darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I've sworn to myself
that I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I've got a tight grip on reality,
but I can't let go of what's in front of me here.
I know you're leaving in the morning
when you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream.

You are the only exception. [x4]

You are the only exception. [x4]

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing.

NB: actually i don't like Paramore's song. but this is so cool.
suit me much.

Orang Terakhir yang Ditunggu

2011-06-30T16:40:00.000-07:00

Saya mengayun kedua tangan dan kaki seirama dengan roda waktu, seolah saya diciptakan sebagai makhluk air bernama penyu bermata sayu.
Ketika ia telah jauh mendahului saya, tiba-tiba saya berhenti.
Sesuatu yang hilang seperti menyeret saya ke belakang serupa jalinan memento, membuat penasaran akan rasanya jatuh cinta lagi.
Semakin penasaran karena degup jantung tak juga menemukan titik pemberhentian.
Saya tak berkedip hingga tiga puluh detik pertama, menanti.
Setelahnya menutup masing-masing kelopak mata perlahan, masih menanti.
Saya segera mengerti bagaimana rasanya berada di tengah palung menuju alam bawah sadar.
Saya melihat dia, sosok perempuan yang begitu sederhana, dengan senyum yang polos, ya, senyum yang tidak seperti orang kebanyakan.
Dengan pita kuning dan langkah riang, dia berjalan melewati saya.
Gadis berponi paling lucu yang pernah saya temui dalam hidup saya,
Saya bertanya-tanya, kenapa saya belum pernah melihat dia sebelumnya.
Meminta nomor teleponnya kepada salah satu temannya, berharap diberi.
Waktu berlalu. Tak kunjung sms itu tiba.
Saya resah. Saya bimbang. Sempat berpikir kenalan langsung. Saya malu. Seakan saya dibuat jantungan.
Saya pikir lebih baik saya tidur.
Saya tidur. Seperti biasa saya mematikan telepon genggam ketika berangkat tidur.
Pagi harinya, saya menyalakan handphone saya, ada 3 sms masuk.
Sms pertama dari teman saya, menannyakan due date cerita yang saya harus buat.
Sms kedua dari ibu saya di kampung, menannyakan kabar saya.
Sms ketiga dari teman saya, dan dia memberi nomor telepon gadis itu.
Woah, saya beranjak dari tempat tidur saya.
Memeluk teman-teman saya di kos saya tanpa sebab saking senangnya, keluar rumah dengan riang.
Langkah kaki saya serasa ringan.
Siangnya saya memberi pesan singkat kepadanya.
Pura-pura menanyakan tentang tugas mata kuliah saya yang kebetulan membutuhkan bantuan angkatan bawah.

Janjian ketemu untuk memberi tugas,
Janjian jam sepuluh.
Memastikan cukup tampan baginya.
Mandi, pake parfum mahal, memastikan tidak ada sisa makanan yang nyelip di gigi. Berusaha tampil sempurna.
Jam sepuluh kurang seperempat saya sudah disana
Menunggu dia datang.
Melihat jam berulang kali.
Dia tidak datang.
Dia tidak datang.
Saya pulang, membawa ruang harapan saya yang kembali lengang.
Hingga pada akhirnya saya kumpulkan keberanian untuk bertanya kenapa dia tidak datang.
Lupa, dia ada kuliah katanya.

saya pulang dengan sedikit kecewa.sampai sekarang saya masih menunggunya.
bukan lagi untuk menjadi bagian hidup saya.
bukan untuk menjadi seseorang yang spesial bagi dia.
Ah, saya lupa, tidak mungkin lagi.

dia orang terakhir yang saya tunggu.
Vherlly Surjaatmadja.
I love you so much.

15-06-11

2011-06-15T08:23:00.000-07:00

i won't losing you..

you make me like a fool

dancing without any reason

you make me forget to breathe

you make me shine like gold

buzz like bee

OH,you make me smile everyday..

and you make me cry because i missing you.

picture from: www.vi.sualize.us

Silly Love

2011-06-11T21:47:00.000-07:00

"Anyone can be passionate,
but it takes real lovers to be silly."
-Rose Franken-

Kamu, orang yang diberkati dengan semua pesona dan senyuman. namun juga orang yang paling kejam dengan senyuman yang membunuh setiap kaum pria.
dan biasanya saya tetap suka saat kamu tersenyum, kemudian berlalu.
setiap pagi saya akan datang, melihat kamu dari kejauhan.
1 menit yang akan menjadi sangat berarti bagi saya.

dengan kamu saya belajar pengertian sayang dan obsesi.
rasa rindu dan benci.
saya sayang kamu. itu jelas.
kamu bilang saya terobsesi dengan kamu? maka saya akan melupakan obsesi saya untuk bersama wanita lain di luar sana.
saya rindu kamu. setiap hari.
saya benci ketika kamu membuat saya bisu dan membuat jantung saya serasa mau pecah.

banyak hal yang saya suka dari kamu.
matamu, senyum kamu, semua hal tentang kamu.
dan hal itu tidak saya jumpai dari orang lain di luar sana.

ya keyakinanku memang sempat terguncang dengan banyakanya teman-teman saya yang kasihan melihat diri saya.
megolok-olok kamu dan membenarkan saya.
ketika saya berusaha merapikan hati saya kembali.
saya ragu.
karena satu yang saya yakini benar,
jika saya sembuh,
jika suatu saat saya tidak lagi menangis luka, atau tersenyum lirih ketika melihatmu,
saya akan melupakanmu.

nyatanya, saya tidak peduli.
saya ingin hidup dalam kesalahan dan rasa sakit ini.
asal saya bersama kamu, semuanya akan baik-baik saja kan, sayang?

I love you till the moon and back Vherlly.

NB: saya ingin berikan kamu kado ini. sepatu hak tinggi paling kamu suka. sesuatu yang kamu gambar di doodle kita. Cheers :)
I love you so.

You Are..

2011-06-07T07:36:00.000-07:00

you are amazing/ you are brave/ you are kind/ you are beautiful/ you are sexy/ you are adored/
you are smart/ you are generous/ you are incredible/ you are breathtaking/ you are my hero/ you are gorgeus/

you are great friend/ you are my sunshine/ you are a winner/ you are in class of your own/ you are one in a billion/

you are my dream come true/ you are wind beneath my wings/ you are really something/ you are always on my mind/ you are fabulous/ you are important/ you are not mistaken/

you are never alone/ you are loved/ you are a star/ you are my fire/ you are free to dream/ you are happy/

you are the person i won't forget/ you are everything i ever dreamed of/ you are what you are, that's why i love you/ you are a God send/

you are unique/ you are perfect/ you are a miracle/ you are my ultimately love :)

Feromon

2011-06-03T01:46:00.000-07:00

Love doesn't hide.
It stays and fights.
It goes through distance.
That's why love is so strong.
So that i can carry you home.

Mengerti apa artinya cinta sama saja mengerti kenapa dunia ini berputar mengelilingi matahari, mengapa electron memiliki muatan, dan mengerti kinematika suatu katalis.

Rumit, saya tidak bisa menjelaskannya.

Saya mengayun kedua tangan dan kaki seirama dengan roda waktu, seolah saya diciptakan sebagai makhluk air bernama penyu bermata sayu.

Ketika ia telah jauh mendahului saya, tiba-tiba saya berhenti.

Sesuatu yang hilang seperti menyeret saya ke belakang serupa jalinan memento, membuat penasaran akan rasanya jatuh cinta lagi.

Semakin penasaran karena degup jantung tak juga menemukan titik pemberhentian.

Saya tak berkedip hingga tiga puluh detik pertama, menanti.

Setelahnya menutup masing-masing kelopak mata perlahan, masih menanti.

Saya segera mengerti bagaimana rasanya berada di tengah palung menuju alam bawah sadar.

Saya melihat dia, sosok perempuan yang begitu sederhana, dengan senyum yang polos, ya, senyum yang tidak seperti orang kebanyakan.

Dengan pita kuning dan langkah riang, dia berjalan melewati saya.

Gadis berponi paling lucu yang pernah saya temui dalam hidup saya.

Ayah saya selalu bilang, Ketika manusia berhenti berharap dan bermimpi tentang apa yang ingin dia capai atau dapatkan, itulah hari kematiannya.

Saya selalu ingat perkataan itu. Di tengah harapan yang hampir mati.

Dititik ini pula saya berusaha bangkit. Mengatasi ketakutan dan tangisan saya sendiri

Sahabat-sahabat saya yang terkikik-kikik yang dengar saya bercerita.

Mereka mengenalkan saya kepada beberapa wajah baru.

Mereka pikir saya akan bisa melupakan orang yang saya sayang, hanya jika saya bisa mencintai lagi.

Hidup saya jadi seakan berwarna lagi.

Saya cukur rambut, berusaha tampil rapi lagi agar tidak dibilang kuno. Buang gombal sana sini

Berusaha mencintai lagi.

Tapi saya akhirnya percaya omongan guru biologi SMP saya. ketika dia menjelaskan feromon di hari itu.

“Feromon adalah zat yang membuat satu dengan lainnya tertarik. Ini pertama kali ditemukan pada serangga, yang membuat mereka menemukan lawan jenis mereka meski berjarak ratusan kilometer”

“lalu apakah feromon juga ada di dalam tubuh kita?” teman saya bertanya.

“Ya, semua kita punya feromon. Saat engkau melihat orang yang engkau sayang, feromon akan bekerja, tubuhmu bereaksi, pupil mata membesar hatimu akan berdesir, dan engkau bilang, PAPA SAYA MAU MELAMAR DIA.”

Semua kelas tertawa. Saya tidak. Saya mencatatnya.

Bagi saya.

Ini misi saya. Saya telah menemukan feromon saya sendiri. Dalam kamu.

Sepertiga

2011-05-17T20:21:00.000-07:00

Day 10: Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

love may go

but friendship not.

this is what you always said to me

this post was presented to Angelina Leni Ayu Wardhani
the one who always be a nice person to chat or talk with.
the one who always be with me even the darkness night.
when i was hiding from everything.
and nobody to ease my pain
she will stay remain.

love may go
but friendship not.
this is what you always said to me

i always remembering you. in my spare time. i'm used to remembering you as the forever friend that just like in the tale.
angel, wherever you are now.
you need to know,
that the three and half years, we've been together was the greatest time with you.
that i'm no need to take my self die.
you've in there when i broke up.
you've in there when i'm feeling guilty.
you've in there when nobody was.

there's no word i can't say other than thank you.
if it's not you.
if it's not you, when i'm in the worst condition.
if it's not you. when i'm so down and kneeling my feet
when i can't even looked into my face.
if there is no you,

maybe i was died.
dead because all the painful things i've been experienced in my life.
dead because i've never learned something from this pain.
dead because my dream was taken away.

but i know, you are the angel sent by God,
not with those wings, and shiny face, that i can't even remark.
i am sorry,
i've never told you about how i enjoyed to take time with you.
when we ate the "babi kecap and ice cream together"
i'll bring another babi kecap. with smile in your eyes, we'll eat it together like the last time we did it. :)
that's what you said.

and all of this.
culminate in one sentence
actually i've misses my old friend, friend i can share, freind i can depend on, friend i can trust

i missed how we used to be, one to another, care each other, protect each other,
so angel, just take care there.
and for you, God, thank you for your guardian angel you've sent.
that's was off-beat, remarkable thinks.

we'll be eternal friends.

we'll meet soon...

somewhere, someplace we've never suppose to be.

somewhen, somehow,

ciao!

suatu saat kamu akan tahu

2011-05-16T03:25:00.000-07:00

suatu saat kamu akan tahu.
tidak semua hal di dunia ini datang secara instan.

suatu saat kamu akan tahu
rasanya disakiti oleh orang yang paling kamu sayang.

suatu saat kamu akan tahu
betapa beruntungnya dirimu.

suatu saat kamu akan tahu
rasanya mencintai orang yang mencintaimu

suatu saat kamu akan tahu
bagaimana orang-orang di sekitarmu memperlakukanmu

suatu saat kamu akan tahu rasanya
rasanya jadi saya,

suatu saat kamu akan tahu,

suatu saat kamu akan tahu.
rasanya...
merindu seorang tiap malam. (dan kamu bahkan tidak dapat lagi melihatnya.)

suatu saat kamu akan tahu.
bagaimana saya mengatasi perasaan ini.

suatu saat kamu akan tahu.
bagaimana saya menangis tiap malam. kehilangan.

suatu saat kamu akan tahu.
bagaimana saya berusaha tersenyum tiap hari. hanya demi kamu, vherlly.

suatu saat kamu akan tahu
..diri saya.
bukan orang lain.
satu demi satu.

suatu saat kamu akan tahu,
bahwa saya sayang kamu.
dulu,
sekarang,
selamanya.

suatu saat kamu akan tahu,
saya tidak akan meninggalkan kamu.

suatu saat kamu akan tahu...
ya, suatu saat kamu akan tahu...

I'll Love You Till the End

2011-05-09T22:01:00.000-07:00

Saya tahu di dalam hidup ini selalu ada dua sisi.

seperti koin yang dilemparkan ke atas.

kamu memiliki dua bagian yang sangat berbeda dalam hidupmu.

hanya ada dua warna, tidak ada kuning, biru, merah, abu-abu.

hanya ada dua, hitam dan putih.

dalam pilihan ini pula,

saya berada dalam titik jenuh saya,

seperti larutan kristal yang melewati derajat saturasinya.

demikian pula hati ini mengeras.

tidak ingin mencintai.

tidak ingin dicintai.

semua ini pilihan.

pda akhirnya saya kembali ke satu pertanyaan yang diungkapkan semua orang,

"kenapa?"

kenapa bumi ini bulat?

kenapa ada bulan, matahari, bintang?

kenapa saya dilahirkan ke dunia ini?

KENAPA kamu hadir di kehidupan saya kemudian lenyap tiba-tiba?

saya liar

saya marah,

saya galau,

saya makan coklat lima kali sehari, tidak cukur kumis supaya penampilan berbeda,

tidur larut, bangun siang.

iya, saya terlampau sakit untuk bisa menyakiti kamu.

saya terlampau sayang kamu vherlly surjaatmadja.

dan bahkan ketika kamu berkata, "it ends here",

saya masih disana.

bukan untuk menunggu kamu,

saya terlalu rapuh untuk berdiri dengan dua kaki saya.

seperti rumah tua yang tidak ditinggali lagi,

saya diam.

tidak apa sayang, semua akan baik-baik saja.

saya, kamu, semuanya akan baik-baik saja.

akhirnya saya tahu, hal paling buruk dari masa lalu adalah memori

dunia saya tidak menunggui kamu.

dunia saya tetap berputar bahkan tanpa kamu,

Vherlly, dengar saya,

saya akan berjuang sayang,

dengan kedua kaki dan tangan saya,

saya berjanji, saya akan membiarkanmu bahagia.

hitam, putih, semuanya pilihan kamu kan?

semoga semua akan berakhir bahagia ya sayang?

dengan suara lirih saya,

setiap malam saya akan menyebut namamu dalam setiap doa saya,

saya berjanji...

Sembilanpertigapuluh

2011-05-04T21:37:00.000-07:00

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Siapakah di antara kamu yang karena kekuatirannya dapat menambahkan sehasta (satu jam) pada jalan hidupnya? Jadi, jikalau kamu tidak sanggup membuat barang yang paling kecil, mengapa kamu kuatir akan hal-hal lain?” (Lukas 12:22-26)

orang yang saya ingin temui bukanlah seorang yang spesial.

dia orang biasa yang hadir dari kehadiran saya sekarang ini.

dia generasi sesudah saya.

ayah saya pernah berkata saya, "nak, jadilah engkau seperti apa yang ada. Lakukan hal dengan kebebasan.

Jadilah burung di udara. Lihat segala sesuatunya. Belajar. Berbuatlah kesalahan, agar kamu tahu apa itu kebenaran

dan engkau harus tahu. kesuksesan hidupmu tidak ditentukan oleh orang lain.

tapi apa yang kamu lakukan sekarang..."

orang yang saya ingin temui sekarang adalah 30 tahun sesudah ini.

bahwa saya ingin melihat diri saya sendiri.

sukses atau gagalnya dia.

saya ingin melihat diri saya yang keriput, renta, dan menangis,

saya ingin melihatnya tertawa.

tetapi bukan itu yang saya inginkan.

saya hanya ingin dia menilai diri saya sekarang,

bahwa yang saya lakukan sekarang bukanlah hal terbaik yang pernah dilakukan oleh seorang anak muda.

bahwa saya tidak ingin dia menjadi akhirnya sombong jika dia sukses dalam hidupnya.

saya mewanti-wanti itu.

Namun, saya tidak ingin melihatnya terjerembab.

jatuh dalam lubang penderitaan, meronta, kemudian mengutuki diri saya yang sekarang.

saya, pada masa sekarang. yang belum bisa apa-apa.

bahwa saya yang sekarang ini, membuat dia sengsara.

apa yang saya dapat buat,

apa yang tidak.

inilah yang membentuk saya seperti sekarang ini,

saya bukanlah seorang yang terbaik pada masanya. Namun saya belajar bahwa untuk menjadi orang yang lebih baik.

harus ada masa yang buruk dalam hidup saya.

masa terburuk yang membuat saya merefleksikan diri saya.

seperti sekarang.

ketika saya merasa orang yang saya sayang meninggalkan saya satu per satu.

ketika saya melihat orang yang saya sayang menangis dan saya tidak bisa apa-apa.

ketika saya merasa sendiri di tengah keramaian.

ketika saya sibuk menghitung uang receh yang saya sehari-hari kumpulkan saat membayar di depan mbak toko depan.

ketika saya merasa gagal alam hidup ini.

saya tahu saya punya Dia,dia, dan saya sendiri.

masa depan saya.

30 tahun sesudah masa.

Jadi.. demi dia, orang yang saya sayang,

dan diri saya,30 tahun ke depan.

SAYA TIDAK AKAN MENYERAH SEKARANG.

Snap it!

2011-05-02T22:43:00.000-07:00

Do You need time to captures the pictures you seen?

With default. you need to print screen it, copy to your program like paint, adobe photoshop, or adobe image ready.

but do you know that if your windows sometimes hang and you lost the pictures you've captured?

I have the solutions for it, Capture anything you see on your PC screen!

Don't waste time cropping your captures. Take a "snapshot" of anything exactly what you need, with just a click.

Easy to Learn, Easy to Use!

Using SnapIt Screen Capture Software takes just three simple steps:

1. Start the program (click on the program's icon). It appears minimized in a system tray:

2. Click PrtScr (Print Screen) button and select with mouse what you need to capture on the screen. After selecting the region it is automatically copied to the clipboard.

3. Save a snapshot from the clipboard with any way you like:

Open Microsoft Word and create new document. Press Ctrl+v combination and paste image from the clipboard to the document. Technical Writers often use this approach to describe program interfaces.

Open Photoshop. Create new image file or open existed image file. Simply paste captured image from the clipboard (press Ctrl+v combination). This approach is convenient for Graphic Designers in order to make collages.

Right mouse click on the SnapIt icon in a system tray and you will see the menu bellow. Choose "Save As" and save captured image as bmp, png, gif, jpg, etc file.

4. Use the Properties menu to define the hot key you want to press to take your screenshots

The most powerful feature of SnapIt:

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2011-05-02T10:31:00.000-07:00

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A Boy and A Girl

2011-04-24T17:43:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time. There was a boy

the boy love a girl.

but so does the girl.

the story began at age of six

He loved her so

And everyday

He'd let her know

"I love you"

He'd say each day

She'd just laugh

And run away

Till one day

She turned around

And sat with him

On the playground

Every morning they would meet beside the big oak tree.

In the summer, they would play together in the sun

And sit beneath the big oak tree when the day was done.

One time when they were talking of growing up some day

They agreed they'd meet back there and maybe even stay.

By the big oak tree they could build a little home

And they would be together and neither one would roam.

When boy was thirteen and the girl soon would be,

They stood together one last time beside the big oak tree.

girl had to leave for his family soon would move.

He took his pocketknife and in the big oak made a groove.

The groove was boy's simple way of giving her his word.

As he spoke so softly, this is what girl heard:

"On your eighteenth birthday, I'll return to our oak tree.

Then we will be together forever--you and me."

the boy soon to be grown up, high school came.

the boy are excited to met the girl he's loved

They met again.

They laughed about

The things back then

They began to date

And the boy soonly fell in love

He got the girl

That he'd dreamed of

the girl was so happy to know that the boy ask him to go date with her.

the boy wears black shirt and the girl wear green.

they met in coffee shop.

when they boy put her eyes shivery on the girl.

the girl giggling.

she's hold his hand in her hands.

when the girl quickly kissed him.

the boy was shocked.

and they stare on each other.

They began to dance

Remembering

Their old romance

Two years later

She became his wife

They'd be together

All of their life

They went on a drive

When it was no longer light

They drove down the roads

Of the starry night

The music came on

She started to sing

He whispered, "You're my everything"

silent word hold forth between them

and silently the girl sleep in his arms.

they start to build a little house.

not big, but comfortable for them

...near the oak tree..

with garden.. and a lot of flower.

their love grows stronger and stronger when

the matter came.

the boy get cancer.

but he didn't tell the girl about this...

everyday, after the boy came back from the work.

the boy will hug her tight, like never let her go.

everyday. the boy make some candle in his house,

and when the girl see it.

the boy will close her eyes.

led her into the candle.

and they will dance beside the candle.

and when the girl going to sleep.

the boy will kiss her brow, down to nose,and deep down kiss her lips.

when his lips touch her lips.

the boy soonly to cry

but stand and shed her tears.

and say goodnight tenderly to her

one day.

the boy left his house.

with no words. he left one letter to his girl.

"I love you so much

It's always been true

But you'll find someone else

And you'll love again too

I never wished to end like this but i hope you find your happiness"

"No," he cried

"It's always been you

I don't want someone else

I only want you"

she's confused.

she's ran out.

looking for her angel.

when the girl ran away she's drive in to the big oak tree.

there was a boy

standing there.

the girl came slowly.

and hug her unseenly.

And there on that oak tree

they were spent last time together.

Is where she cried

Hugging her love

As he slowly died.

so every years..

the girl would came..

came to see her grave..

and put her hands in the old groove that the boy made.

and say..

"you will be here. in my heart.

and as long i have you..

i am yours. forever,,, just wait for me.."

FIN.

20-4-11

2011-04-20T00:28:00.000-07:00

this writing goes to you.

lady in my dream.. lady of my sunshine

this is not yearning of being lose you.

this is not all the pain i've felt before.

this is just the part of them.

when you saying something i can't understand

with my heart and my mind.

when you are never be there when i'm sad.

though i will still here be with you.

for ever.

yet i know love is not a calculation

of how much i give all i have to you.

how many attention and love i give to you

but i receive insatiable pain.

when you get me to start thinking of who i am.

as i am being nothing for you.

and it makes the stream of tears, drowning into my cheek.

you start hurting me.

not with only your words.

that even you won't see me at all.

this is an elusive dream for me.

that you will thinking of me.

do you know how hardest part of my single day.

that i keeping this feeling for ever.

and now i said.

i forgive you.

because the mean of forgive is for give

this is love i know. from you.

that love isn't always give and take.

even you sometimes forsake me. underestimate me.

for someone i didn't know whether he's really loving or you or not.

everyday.

i'm enchanted to meet you.

i hate for waking up. starting my day.

just to know that you are so far from me.

this time i knew it.

if someday i won't be there to guide you and someone will take it back.

this is small present from me.

He sent from heaven that i'd prayed to God for you.

i named you in my every night. Thousands time.

that you will surely loved because how lovely you are for me.

dream on baby.

this time.

i take this dream with me.

i take my dream with you.

i've already kept it on my mind so no one steal it.

no one..

will have the same dream with me.

yes, i'm broken.

fix me.

-you don't want to?

*no need to worry.

i love you with every single piece of my broken heart.

How Lucky I Am

2011-04-10T23:16:00.000-07:00

bercerita tentang masa lalumu, membuatku sadar akan beberapa hal.

bahwa betapa buruknya saya sewaktu dulu.saya mengejarmu membabi buta,

saya sadar cinta itu lama-lama berubah jadi obsesi.

ini bukanlah apa yang seharusnya saya lakukan,

bukan awal mimpi saya bersama kamu yang terpenting.

bahwa kamu dan saya bertemu di satu titik percabangan antara hidupmu dan hidup saya.

sekarang itu sudah membuat saya sadar.

betapa berharganya saya.

betapa beruntungnya saya memiliki kamu dalam hidup saya.

udara pagi dan mentari yang saya hirup ketika pagi hari.

gadis berponi lucu saya.

yang tidak hentinya membuat saya tertawa tanpa alasan ketika saya melihatmu.

"you are the words that i type, the thought in my head, the sigh in my throat.

I am yours now.

every little piece of me belongs to you.

is because of you.

every dream, every moan, every smile, every moments is you, and belongs solely to you.

i am not about to believe love,

never believed on happiness, and certainly not in romance.

i never believe that i will falling asleep with this grin on this face,

i never believe that my tears that filling my eyes when i'm losing you, will became a happiness,

i was cynical, was..

i'm feel like i can do anything, that i'm handsome enough, it's not because i wasn't there before,

it was there, sleeeping, writing,

waiting for you.

come to your life,

your warmth and depth

it needed to take a root of happiness.

other than anxiety,

other than the sadness.

then i found you,

and I came alive.

you are so... perfect gift for me.

Delapanpertigapuluh

2011-04-08T08:11:00.000-07:00

My Favorite Internet Friend

Uhm. UHm.
Oh there's some friends i would like to introduce to all of you.
1. Melia. Oh she is a really good person..
i still remember when we all chat till our eyes drowse in the late of night.
we talk about food, lessons, boys she's falling in love with, my girlfriend.
we chat about everyday. ;p
she is a good listener and i'm a good story teller
2. abang kodok (www.painting-the-sky.blogspot.com)
i still remember when we usually kick something around, less important than the topic itself.
we usually debate about the world war, how mussolini died, how the birds can fly and the chicken can't
he...
is the founder of the 'chute-de-vous name. and i don't really like the name as i knew the meaning of it.
thx abang denny unyuk.
3. hana (hanalicious.wordpress.com)
she bring me on to serious topic.
and she's made me know about the modern poem and many more. culture, movies.
4. Gogo (intogogo.blogspot.com)
here's my friend of nowhere, God blessed us with so many people we destined to met, even i've never met her. but she's now one my of my sister as i'm really dreamt i have one in my life!

so..
i really lucky to be have friends like you all!
cheers...

*PS: sorry for inconsistent word. i've wrote this on my own words i know. :0

Tujuhpertigapuluh

2011-03-30T18:00:00.000-07:00

"Hancur buang abunya dalam telaga biru, timbun dengan nadi dan sesap asapnya dengan cerutu, kubur dibawah lempeng lima benua, lupakan! Lupakan semuanya sampai busuk, jadi lumut, aku mau lupa."
terkadang ada saatnya kita ingin melupakan bagian diri kita sendiri. tentang seseorang yang mengisi setiap waktumu. dimulai dengan ucapan selamat pagi dan diakhiri dengan ucapan "goodnight sweetheart" dan kecupan selamat tidur.
iya, saya terlalu pengecut untuk mengingat semua kalimat itu.

Apa rasanya? Apa rasanya ditinggalkan oleh seorang yang paling kau percayai di dunia, yang mimpinya kau telan seperti obat penawar rasa sakit akan dunia, yang ucapannya kau minum pagi-siang-sore-malam supaya kau tetap hidup dalam dunia yang semakin menggila, dan terlebih lagi.. supaya kau tetap punya mimpi. Seorang yang membuatmu begitu percaya pada dirimu sendiri, pada kata idealisme yang bahkan kau tak tahu apa artinya.

Seorang yang mengajarkanmu meneliti indahnya langit senja dan lalu mengartikan bentuk-bentuk jingga di langit seberang sambil merendam kaki. Seorang yang bercerita tentang kisah-kisah gila para inspirator dan kadang kau tahu juga bahwa kisahnya itu karangannya sendiri. Seorang yang mengajarkanmu cara mewarnai pelangi, cara memelihara mimpi dan cara terbang ke angkasa tanpa sayap.

Aku menghabiskan banyak waktu merenung, berpikir,marah, menangis untuk menemukan sebuah penjelasan. Penjelasan yang tak bisa kudapatkan. Kata tanya tanpa jawaban. Aku mengingat-ingat segalanya, mencari kalam, dimana yang salah kuletakkan tentang segala sesuatu yang kukira benar. Dan jawaban itu tak ada, tak sedikitpun memberikan petunjuk untuk membuatku lega.

Di sebuah titik aku sadar, menemukan diriku telah lama terisak-isak di atas tumpukan kenangan yang sudah hampir basi. Dan di saat itu, dengan langkah gontai aku menghampiri brangkas terdalam pada ingatan dan hatiku, kukunci semua kalimat dan suara yang telah akrab di telingaku, kuletakkan paling bawah. Pengaman ganda. Selesai. Aku tak lagi sakit, aku tak lagi marah, tak lagi perih, tapi kosong.
Musnah saja, anggap saja tak pernah terjadi. Aku memilih untuk tak ingat. Aku memilih untuk lupa bahwa aku pernah sangat sayang pada mereka yang telah mengajarkanku cara memelihara mimpi dan bagaimana cara tertawa.

Cara itu ampuh, saya lupa dan waktu menghempas saya semakin jauh. Menawarkan berbagai senyum lain, mengisi dengan orang-orang baru, wajah-wajah baru, bahkan... mimpi-mimpi baru. Pelan-pelan hatiku penuh lagi, banyak warna lagi, banyak tawa lagi, walaupun ruang yang ditinggalkan itu tetap kosong.

Menghela napas, saya menghapus setitik dua titik sungai di wajahku. Mengucapkan salam pada tukang nasi goreng langganan yang kiosnya kini sepi dan lalu beranjak bangkit. saya punya serentetan kehidupan di depan saya, saya punya banyak pertanyaan yang masih harus kucari jawabnya... Tanpa melihat lagi ke belakang.

saya sudah punya dia, gadis berponi lucu saya.

terima kasih untuk kalian yang pernah ada di dalam hidup saya.
Ciao!

PS: Long time no write here.
Rasanya dibanding teman saya yang menulis pengalaman 30 harinya, saya yang paling terlambat.
:)

Seperlima

2011-03-25T07:03:00.000-07:00

"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend."
— Albert Camus

Ini adalah cerita tentang dari seorang asing.

seorang yang kehadirannya tidak dimengerti.

Stranger, the family you have yet come to know. dimana kalian serasa mengenal satu sama lain bahkan sebelum kalian berjabat tangan dan berkenalan.

saya ingat betapa berkesannya hari itu.

dimana saya tidak mempunyai banyak rencana hari itu.

dimana hidup saya menjadi membosankan karena tidak banyak yang bisa saya lakukan.

menunggu panggilan antrian datang.

bagaimana dia mengisi dua puluh menit waktu saya saya juga tidak tahu

kami bertemu di sebuah tempat yang tidak lazim untuk seorang bertemu dengan seorang yang lain.

stasiun.

dimana rasa ngantuk saya perlahan menghilang ketika mendengar suara seseorang menyanyikan lagu lama.

george baker- "i've been away too long"

saya baru menyadari dia saat dengan susah payah dia mencapai bangku untuk duduk.

usia pria ini mungkin dua kali saya.

dua kali dua puluh dua.

aku duduk di depannya ketika dia tiba-tiba terjatuh dari tempat duduknya. stroke. stroke mengalahkannya,

dan tidak ada seorang pun menyadari dia ada.

invisible man?

saya melihatnya bangkit kembali dan tersenyum sembari menghitung uang receh yang terjatuh dari tasnya.

saya mengambil sebuah koin,

si pria tua menengadah, dan saya meletakannya di tangannya.

kasar seperti parutan kelapa.

dia menangis.

dia berbisik.

dia punya sebuah keluarga.

keluarga yang ditinggalkannya sepuluh tahun lalu.

keluarga dengan dua anak yang masih kecil.

untuk seorang wanita,

dua tahun sesudahnya dia menemukan bahwa seorang wanita selingkuhannya mengambil semua hartanya.

saya mendapati kesedihan dalam diri saya,

bahwa saya merasakan apa yang dia rasakan.

seorang bapak yang melakukan kesalahan di masa lalunya dan ingin memperbaikinya.

saya tanya dari mana asalnya.

dia bercerita bagaimana dia dulu.

bagaimana dia sewaktu masih jaya

bagaimana dia berubah menjadi orang lain

bagaimana dia begitu kejam terhadap dirinya sendiri.

dan keluarganya.

dalam waktu itu, saya menyadari saya merupakan bagian dari hidupnya. meskipun kecil, saya belikan sebuah tiket kereta untuknya, dan uang seadanya, setidaknya cukup untuk 2 hari makan tidur.

ke tempat dimana dia tinggal. saya mungkin tidak paham dimana tepatnya.

tapi ada harapan kecil dalam diri saya, dimana dia dapat bertemu dengan orang yang dia kasihi,

dengan anak-anaknya.

memeluknya.

mencium keningnya dengan lembut.

dan berkata.

"saya bersama kamu selamanya"

ini bukan cerita kebaikan saya.

ini cerita tentang kasih orang asing yang baru ditemuinya.

ini cerita tentang seorang pria tua.

ini tentang kami berdua.

20 maret 2011

di sebuah stasiun kereta di Semarang

Seperenam

2011-03-02T22:42:00.000-08:00

"Hold fast to dreams For if dreams die Life is a broken-winged bird That cannot fly. Hold fast to dreams For when dreams go Life is a barren field Frozen with snow. "

Mimpi..

apa yang dimiliki semua orang.

tentang apa yang ingin diraih.

cita-cita harapan.

yang berusaha diwujudkan

untuk sederet orang, mimpi adalah kesuksesan, ketika posisi tertinggi telah dicapai.
tidak demikian dengan saya
saya benci bermimpi.
saya benci ketika saya harus menuliskan mimpi saya dalam bentuk tulisan.
saya benci ketika saya membacanya
dan saya tersenyum sinis ketika melihatnya.
saya benci ketika saya bermimpi terlalu jauh, hanya untuk kecewa.

mimpi saya sederhana.
membuat orang yang saya sayang bahagia.
saya bermimpi tentang gadis berponi lucu itu lagi,
gadis yang membuat saya selalu tertawa.
saya ingin mencium keningnya di pagi hari.
membuatnya tertawa

apa yang membuat saya tidak mampu menulis hal ini adalah karena saya menulis kebohongan disini
kebohongan kalau saya tidak terluka.
bahwa mimpi saya terlalu cepat menguap.
bahwa apa yang saya impikan selama ini hanyalah "mimpi"

jadi apa itu mimpi? kalau dalam mimpi indah saya tersimpan kenyataan yang pahit?
kalau saya bahkan tidak mampu memejam mata untuk terjun ke dunia mimpi bersama kamu?
kalau saya tidak bisa membuka mata untuk menyadari kenyataan bahwa kamu tidak ada di sampingku?

kamu pernah bertanya,
apa mimpimu?
saya jawab.
"Kamu"

Empatper tigapuluh

2011-02-25T06:49:00.000-08:00

There is a destiny that makes us brothers, no one goes his way alone; all that we send into the lives of others, comes back into our own.

Edwin Markham

Saudara, Kakak, adik sebenarnya merupakan ungkapan pertalian darah antara kita.

di keluarga saya anak kedua dari tiga.

susah senang bersama.

persaudaraan memang tidak bisa dibangun dengan tiba-tiba

tidak dengan satu dua tahun kebersamaan.

persaudaraan saya dengan kakak saya dan adik saya.

lebih dari saling sapa,

gelitik,

maupun salam dan dongeng sebelum tidur.

anak pertama dari keluarga saya,

kakak perempuan saya yang tomboy dan selalu riang.

yang membela saya dimana saya sering dibully oleh teman saya.

bilangnya, baju saya sobek, dan saya hanya anak miskin tidak punya apa-apa

ya memang, saya bilang, mau apa.

saya dipukul dan seketika itu datang superhero saya.

kakak perempuan saya yang perkasa,

Wonderman Millenium lebih cocok sebagai julukan untuknya :)

dengan baju dilingkis ia memberi pelajaran buat mereka semua.

bercerita tentang adik saya,

saya selalu membandingkan dengan Bo Bo Ho, tokoh gendut dalam film kuno.

dimana pipinya menjadi sasaran tembak mulut saya dan tangan saya yang seperti gemas melihatnya.

kami biasa menghabiskan waktu masa kecil kami dengan menonton topeng monyet sebelah gedung sekolah.

lalu dengan bergandengan tangan kami pulang berjalan kaki dari sekolah ke rumah yang berjarak 3 km dari rumah.

dan saat kamu bilang, "Capek kak"

aku akan menggendongmu, bayi super yang beratnya hampir 70 pon

sampai rumah.

kami biasa melakukan semuanya bersama.

dimana aku dan keluargaku menjadi kita,

satu terluka yang lain merasakan juga,

terlebih dari itu.

maafkan saya, tidak cukup waktu yang saya limpahkan untuk kalian,

untuk mendengar celoteh kalian,

untuk bersama kalian membuat bola-bola coklat bersama,

untuk bersama melihat hujan, awan,

melukisnya.

fuhh...

It was nice growing up with someone like you guys

someone to lean on,

someone to count on...

someone to tell on.

Tigapertigapuluh

2011-02-24T04:16:00.000-08:00

"What it's like to be a parent: It's one of the hardest things you'll ever do but in exchange it teaches you the meaning of unconditional love. "
Nicholas Sparks (The Wedding)

Talking about parents..

Bandage scraped knees. Kiss away fears. Watch my heartbreak and dry my tears. Teach me to know what's right and what's wrong. Show me how to be gentle and when to be strong. Tell them that you love them, and then let it show. That's the easiest part of our grow.

Saya masih ingat semuanya, Mom, Dad.
Bagaimana ibu saya mandi pukul empat, menyiapkan sarapan bagi ketiga anaknya, dan satu orang ayah.

Mandi peluh? itu biasa katanya.
tidak jarang.
Tidak jarang cubitan atau teriakan ibu mampir ke telinga saya jika saya nakal.
hal yang paling menyedihkan adalah melihat ibu,
tidur menyamping karena kecapekan mengurus rumahtangga sehari-hari,
lalu saya akan datang,
mencium kening ibuku yang masih dengan cream tidurnya,
diam-diam...

dan ayahku.
sepenggal memoar tentang ayahku.
ayahku tidak tinggi besar.
ayahku tidak seorang yang paling kuat di dunia
dia juga cuma lulusan SMA

namun bagiku, dia ilmuwan,
dia seorang olahragawan yang membuatku tercengang,
aku suka melihat caranya berbicara.
tanpa konotasi yang berlebih dia mengajariku membaca, berhitung,
dia tidak orang yang kuat.
namun, aku suka cara dia menggendongku
dan berkata, "come on boy" saat aku masih kecil.

Orang bilang saya dititipkan pada kalian.
Oleh Tuhan..
dengan satu darah yang mengalir dalam tubuh,
satu gen yang tidak bisa diubah.

tidak dengan amarah.
tidak dengan pecut atau garisan
yang mampir ke badan.

Mom, Dad, saya berterimakasih.
karena apa yang kalian berikan kepada saya.
saya simpan.
pahit, manis, tangisan, tawa kalian,
ada di sebuah foto yang akan selalu saya kenang.
siapa bilang foto itu bisa hilang?
Tidak, kalau saya menyimpannya di pikiran, hati saya?

Jadi, Ayah, Ibu, Bolehkan saya mendapat pelukan terhangat dari kalian?

Duapertigapuluh

2011-02-22T21:19:00.000-08:00

"For yesterday's memories, today's love, and tomorrow's dreams I love you."

ini adalah tentang kamu.

orang yang menjadi bagian dari hidup saya.

seseorang yang mengisolasi saya dari kehidupan saya sekarang.

seorang yang membuat saya tertawa, juga bisa tertunduk lesu tanpa berkata apa-apa.

Kita bertemu oleh waktu yang memepat di sebuah titik yang tak pernah terduga sebelumnya.

Bagaimana kita bisa menduganya kalau semua telah digariskan bukan oleh kita sendiri,

melainkan oleh para aktor-aktor ganjil tak semestinya bersekutu mempertemukan kita?

Pertama adalah ruang perpustakaan,

tempat aku menghabiskan sebagian besar waktu hidupku.

Sejak kecil ibu telah memanjakan aku dengan sebuah ruangan berukuran delapan kali sepuluh meter di rumah kami yang luas, memenuhinya dengan deretan rak dan buku-buku yang tertata bukan berdasarkan katalog seperti yang biasanya berlaku di perpustakaan umum namun berdasarkan nama pengarangnya.

Di ruangan itulah, selepas waktu bermain bersama teman-teman masa kecil,

aku menemukan sebuah lapis kehidupan yang lain,

dunia yang menciptakan kejutan demi kejutan, disana aku pertama kali bertemu denganmu.

kedua,

bagaimana ini diawali saya juga tidak tahu persisnya. Tiba-tiba aku merasa ranting pohon, tempat aku bertengger, bergoyang-goyang. Padahal tidak ada angin yang berembus. Lama-lama goyangannya semakin hebat. Seluruh batang pohon bahkan ikut bergoncang. Aku mengepak-kepak sayapku untuk menjaga keseimbangan.

Ups, aku nyaris jatuh. Apa yang terjadi?

aku jatuh cinta?

Saat itulah waktu memepat, dan dunia seperti membuncahkan segala rahasianya di depan kita, Sayangku.

Kau, dengan matamu yang indah menelan semua impian yang telah kusemai.

Aku tidak tahu jika saat itu aku masuk ke wilayah paling runyam dalam hidupku.

bantu saya menghitung berapa hari semenjak kita bertemu.

bantu saya menghitung jarakmu, denganku

kamu,

berjarak dua puluh koma lima kilo dari rumah saya.

tolong jangan katakan apa-apa.

"saya sayang kamu, Vherlly Surjaatmadja
"

Sepertigapuluh

2011-02-22T05:09:00.000-08:00

"Many people will walk in and walk out of your life, but only true friend will leave a footprints in your heart"
ELEANOR ROOSEVELT

Desember, 1998
ini seperti roller coaster yang berputar
dimana bersama kita berputar melalui dimensi waktu yang kita lewati bersama.
kamu salah satu teman terdekat saya sepanjang masa.
dengan baju rombeng dan keriput,
kulit kurus karena jarang makan.

ini adalah tentang kamu teman,
teman masa kecil saya
sosok yang selalu mengingatkan saya.
don't be fall man, you'll be better soon ketika saya jatuh

kamu teman disaat saya susah dan susah sekali
Tidak, saya hanya bercanda.

mungkin saat-saat saya sendiri seperti inilah saya mengerti pentingnya seorang kawan.
entah sebagai teman ngobrol,
teman ngecengin cewek-cewek SMP sebelah yang terkenal aduhai,
teman berdiskusi kenapa bumi ini bulat atau kenapa jika Tuhan ini Maha Pemaaf kita harus membuat penjara untuk orang-orang yang melakukan kesalahan.
saya bilang karena orang jahat butuh diberi pelajaran, agar mereka kapok, dan tidak mengulanginya lagi,
kamu bilang ini adalah masalah religiositas, kamu menjelaskan teori-teori yang saya tidak mengerti, "kalau Tuhan bisa memaafkan kamu, kenapa kita tidak?"

teman disetrap karena sengaja tidak mengerjakan peer.
BERDUA.
di depan bendera.
mengangkat kedua kaki dan memegang telinga.
tertawa bersama
memamerkan kedua gigi kita yang berlubang karena kebanyakan makan coklat dan mangga sebelah rumah.
teman yang membela saya ketika saya dibully.
you such a great friend to me..

Kawan,
ini adalah saat dimana 12 tahun setelahnya..
aku menemukan kawan baru..
kawan yang mengelilingiku dengan tawa dan senyum,
Teman-teman seperjuangan saya sewaktu praktek kerja.
yang dengan bodohnya menghabiskan sepanjang hari kita dengan membolos, atau kadang ngadem di kantin,
teman yang berbagi tugas bersama, dan mengerjakannya bergantian hingga malam,
teman yang membantuku untuk mengclear semua masalah dan menyelesaikannya bersama.

ini adalah tentang kalian.

kalian nomor satu di hidup saya.

Lily..

2011-02-19T18:31:00.000-08:00

Bolelah kuceritakan sebuah kisah lama,

kisah yang belum pernah kuceritakan sebelumnya

tentang hitam dan putihnya duniaku.

serita tentang seorang gadis yang bandel

yang hinggap di kepalaku dan seakan tidak lepas.

orang bilang sayang itu wajar,

tidak perlu bilang saya akan bersamanya selamanya

tidak perlu bilang saya mencintainya sampai akhir waktu.

itu hanya ada di roman picisan, atau lagu gombal para anak band jaman sekarang.

saya bilang cinta adalah cinta.

Tuhan menciptakan emosi

salah satunya cinta

Tuhan menciptakan kamu.

untuk saya?

bukan..

Tuhan mencipta kamu.

supaya saya bisa mensyukuri kehadiranmu.

supaya saya bisa mencium aroma pagi,

saat kamu tersenyum, terlihat sibuk dengan pekerjaanmu,

dan saya melamunkanmu.

bersama saya, tertawa bersama,

dan saya bertanya,

"Kamu suka bunga lily?"

"Ya" jawabmu singkat.

"Kenapa?"

"Karena bunga lily sangat indah?, bagaimana denganmu?" dan kamu akan tersenyum dan mengerling.

"Alasan kita sama..."

tak banyak waktu untuk membiarkan bunga itu mekar

cukup tiga kali siram. tidak banyak waktu.

dan waktu yang bergulir menjadi milikku,

aku dan kamu..

Waktu berubah sedemikian cepat

merubah kisahmu dan aku,

dan aku akan berjumpa dengan tokoh-tokoh baru yang akan kujumpai di berbagai tempat,

yang akan menggantikanmu sebagai model di dalam tulisanku.

aku bahkan tidak dapat merangkai imajinasiku dengan kenyataan.

dimana aku belum juga bisa menulis tentangmu.

cerita tentangmu terbengkalai di ujung kamar

terpojok sepi, membiru.

aku abaikan semua.

kata-katamu..

merangkai penggalan kata yang hilang.

ini tentang tiga kata itu

kata yang tidak pernah saya ungkapkan lagi.

"Saya sayang kamu"

A Little Gift for Valentine Day

2011-02-15T18:24:00.000-08:00

I live through my dark existence
only to bask in your beauty
your eyes that shine like sapphires
your smile that brightens even my sad existence
I envy the wind that runs through your hair
that touches your lips...

I long to touch you...
to hold you in my arms but I cannot
for your heart belongs to another so,

I can only love you from a far
your friendship means more to me
than anything this world provides
but like an angel you touched my heart
in a way that I've never felt before
cause I've never known what love is until this day

I know that we are only friends
but my heart wishes it to be more
so I will still hope and dream
that one day I can feel your lips pressed to mine
to hold you in my arms and say,

"I love you"

PS: i am sorry for everything yet i can't tell you that.

no matter what is happen next, i'll grateful for every moment i spent with you.

and even though i keep fumbling for the right words,

all i want to say was thank you.

Happy Valentine's Day

20 Things You Should Remember

2011-01-29T04:47:00.000-08:00

I saw a girl in a mirror, crying and sobbing

It was you.

Remember everything like it was yesterday.

I’m in pain.

You are in pain.

I know that we are really have a great time.

Altough it was over. I gladly to say

I had the chance to know you well.

To surrounding your life.

To protect you from pain i feel and that you felt yesterday.

I tell you!

Dream!
There is a way to change your future, girl, you have to accept that your past is gone.

Your future is important and don’t forget you’re not alone.

I know you don’t have many friend out there, so do I

If you loved someone, you couldn’t let lies come between you.

No matter what happened - even if you’d already lost each other forever - you owed each other the truth.

Your presence is a gift for world.

You are unique and one of a kind.

Your life can be what you want it to be.

Count your blessings, not your troubles.

You will make it wherever you came along.

Within you are so many answer.

Understand, have courage, be strong.

Do not taking all things too seriously,

Remember that little love goes a long way.

Remember that too much goes forever ;p

Realize that it’s never been to late.

Do ordinary things in extraordinary way.

Sacrifice for your love, have hearth and happiness.

Live a life of a serenity, not a life of regrets

And do not even forget.

For even a hour.

HOW IMPORTANT YOU ARE!

=)

Nama Saya Leonard..

2011-01-06T20:51:00.000-08:00

Nama saya Leonard Liem Nababan

Hari mendung.

Seperti biasa saya ke luar kantor sejenak.

Hanya untuk melihat rintik hujan.

Untuk melihat bidadari hujan turun, membasahi semua makhluk,

Untuk melihat pengorbanan sang awan

Pengorbanan sang awan yang menyerahkan dirinya sebagai sang pesakitan

Mati dan menjadi hujan.

Hari menjelang sore, saya pulang, bergurau dengan ibu saya, ayah saya.

Menutupi luka dengan senyum

Trik lama.

Selalu tersenyum hingga ibu saya bertanya.

Ada apa.

Malas menjawab.

Bilang lagi jatuh cinta, lagi kasmaran.

Masuk ke kamar,

Memencet tombol remote tanpa arah.

Sebentar menyeduh kopi hangat.

Menyeruputnya hingga sadar kalo lidah serasa terbakar.

Mencoba untuk makan

Semua makanan tidak enak.

Tetap melahap makanan dengan cepat.

Lahap.

Segera masuk kamar kemudian menutup mata.

Dan menangis..

Orang bilang patah hati itu jelek.

Orang bilang “sudah daripada kamu sedih nanti dapat ganti”

Orang bilang kehilangan cinta = kehilangan semuanya.

Saya tidak percaya hal tersebut.

Saya sama sekali tidak mempercayainya.

Seperti saya percaya kamu.

Saya selalu percaya

Saya selalu percaya, akhir dari segalanya = awal sesuatu yang baru,

Sesuatu untuk dibagi bersama orang terkasih.

Sesuatu untuk selalu dikenang dalam hidup ini.

Namun, saya memilih memulai kisah ini dari akhir perjalanan saya.

Dari akhir perjalanan cinta saya.

Dari hal yang saya kira tidak ada.

Di hari dimana kamu sangat cantik.

Memaki-maki saya.

Dimana kamu mengucapkan ejekan, umpatan

Bilang kamu sudah punya pacar.

kamu tidak akan membiarkanku masuk dalam hidupmu.

Bilang saya bodoh karena mengiriminya surat cinta saya melalui pesan pendek.

Menatap matamu lekat-lekat.

Berharap lidah bisa mengeluarkan kesaktiannya berbicara.

Lidah saya mati kutu.

Apalagi yang bisa saya katakan

Apalagi yang bisa saya katakan.

Menstarter motor dan pulang.

Saya berharap saya bisa jadi orang yang lebih baik.

Saya berharap waktu bisa diputar kembali

Semudah memutar gagang pintu,

Semudah memencet remote teve, kemudian mematikannya kembali.

Buat apa.

Buat apa Leonard.

Saya punya seribu jawaban.

Untuk mengembalikan kisah ini seperti awal cerita saya.

Dimana kita berkenalan.

“nama saya Leonard Nababan”

“maukah kamu menikah dengan saya?”

Melihat kamu tertegun sejenak

“hah?” Menikah?”

MULUT BILANG: “Nggak, saya bercanda, sekarang siapa nama kamu?”

HATI BILANG: (Saya tidak pernah bercanda soal kamu)

Awal dari segalanya,

21 Juni 2009

I Can't Stop Crying Today

2011-01-03T04:37:00.000-08:00

I can't stop crying today
My world walked out the door
With her she took my heart
For I will love no more

The hours passed like seconds
When our two hearts were one
The seconds passed like hours
After she said that she was done

She was going to love me forever
At least that is what she said
Her heart belonged to someone else
That is what her letter read

I no longer live in color
My world is black and white
I always wonder what she is doing
As I lie awake at night

I hope tomorrow is better
This is what I pray
But right now my heart is broken
I can't stop crying today

Day 50: Can You Love Me for Me?

2010-12-28T18:49:00.000-08:00

Can you ever love me for me?
for that I am True and Wrong..

Can you love me with my imperfections?

Can you see me as I am and not as what you want me to be?

Can you ever love me for me?
for me that makes so many mistakes and speaks without thinking?

Can you Love me even I am unreasonable?

Can you see me as I am and not Angel that you seek?

Can you ever love me for me?
when i am weak and need your help, need your presence..

Can you love me for me when I am sad without me having a reason to be?

Can you see me as I am not as what I once was?
Can you ever think about me?
when you scuh having great fun, when you laughed..
Can you love me for me???

Can you ever See me?

God Won't Ask- Author Unknown

2010-12-23T16:51:00.000-08:00

God won’t ask what kind of car you drove, but will ask how many people you drove who didn’t have transportation.

God won’t ask the square footage of your house, but will ask how many people you welcomed into your home.

God won’t ask about the fancy clothes you had in your closet, but will ask how many of those clothes helped the needy.

God won’t ask about your social status, but will ask what kind of class you displayed.

God won’t ask how many material possessions you had, but will ask if they dictated your life.

God won’t ask what your highest salary was, but will ask if you compromised your character to obtain that salary.

God won’t ask how much overtime you worked, but will ask if you worked overtime for your family and loved ones.

God won’t ask how many promotions you received, but will ask how you promoted others.

God won’t ask what your job title was, but will ask if you reformed your job to the best of your ability.

God won’t ask what you did to help yourself, but will ask what you did to help others.

God won’t ask how many friends you had, but will ask how many people to whom you were a true friend.

God won’t ask what you did to protect your rights, but will ask what you did to protect the rights of others.

God won’t ask in what neighborhood you lived, but will ask how you treated your neighbors.

God won’t ask about the color of your skin, but will ask about the content of your character.

God won’t ask how many times your deeds matched your words, but will ask how many times they didn’t.

God won't ask you how to be loved.. God will ask you to love someone..

I Hate...

2010-12-19T22:42:00.000-08:00

I hate when people sitting by and doing nothing but comment on what i'm doing..

I hate when people ask me "What are you doing right now?". It's illogical things for me.

I hate when I have to wait for someone.

I hate the people who pretend to care about you but doing nothing and they really give a shit!

I hate when you say that you hate me

I hate when my friend leave me

I hate when i've no things to write

I hate Mouse

I hate when i got no idea to make you smile

I hate when i get so busy till i don't have time to be with "you"...

I hate when you want me only when you are lonely..

I hate when I wake up in early morning and see u aren't there.. beside me..

I hate when you smile.. you make me fall and never get up.

I hate when "you" looked at me and you don't know what i'm exactly feel

I hate you when you make me love you even more

====================================================================

well it's my life..

"I won't cry"

2010-12-19T19:14:00.000-08:00

I see no reason,

I see no rhyme,
Why have I been left behind
alone to serve the sentence of your crime?

I've been put down and pushed around,
often finding myself on the ground.
I've had to push myself deep inside
and build a wall behind which I can hide,
hoping only too survive.

I see no reason,
I see no Rhyme,
Why have I been left behind
alone to serve the sentence of your crime?
Though my heart still beats and my lungs still breath,
I no longer feel alive.
I've sealed my feelings deep inside,

Now I wont scream and I won't cry tonight............

I Won't...

Thx For the Poem Sent by: Alyssa ^^

Do not Cry Alyssa :))

Want To SEND THE OTHER STORY, POET??
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Love Messages

2010-12-12T03:25:00.000-08:00

Love is never easy
it isn't like when you write into a paper
it is memorized in your mind and it won't go like ghost..
you can't write it, rip it, then threw it away..

i just know (hope) this thing..
if somebody is loving someone truly in her/his heart
love will find the way
love isn't future we seek
love isn't past we try to understand
love is simply kiss or hugs even a words "hi"

it isn't going to be happen without passion
but it will not led us into possesion.

but bad news is.. when someone lose it they tend to give up too easily

always reasonable to loving someone
but u can find any reason to forget it
understandable but is it really necessary?

PS for someone: "as long as you are happy, other stuff can be saved for later'
fuck distance.. be here now for her..

What I've Learned

2010-12-08T00:47:00.000-08:00

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes. After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that it's not what happens to people that's important. It's what they do about it.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned that it's will be six years to learn to stop hating me, 5 years to becoming friend with me and 10 years to learnt to love me

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice and sometimes it's really hard to do.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that although the word "love" can have many different meaning, it loses value when overly used.

The Climb-Miley Cyrus Lyrics

2010-12-07T16:56:00.000-08:00

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith..

2010-11-24T16:49:00.000-08:00

“Love one another, but make not a bond of love: Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls “Love is trembling happiness...”
Kahlil Gibran

i don't know how exactly i feel..
feeling rude, feel lonely..
feeling that kills me..

waking up is really hard to do. sleeping is really hard to do too..
just like to hearing you speaking through my mind..
simple things that make it complicated in my life..

benarkah ada kehidupan setelah kematian?
dan benarkah ada cinta setelah kita tidak pernah bertemu?

dalam hidupku aku banyak sekali melakukan kesalahan.
dari hal terkecil hingga hal terbesar.
mencintaimu adalah kesalahan..
namun melepasmu adalah kesalahan terbesar yang sedang aku lakukan sekarang.

i was made to believe that i'd never love somebody else.
but you came showing me another way.
and brought all that my love can bring

pityful.. yes it's pityful
i can't see you clear . you standing right there.. walking away and disappear.

sadness and happiness..
half of my heart get into you..
a real imagination that won't work..

but half of my heart is a part of man,
who never truly loves anything but you..

as if it is really true that there is life after death.. and then we met.. would you let me think that i'm not only dreamer who spent my life into regret?

Yes, It Is..

2010-10-25T18:11:00.000-07:00

It's nice to know that you're secured with that someone. That even if the rain is pouring hard and the sky is almost dark, he'll never leave you just so you won't feel alone. Even if his friends had left him (and even if he has to be somewhere else) he'd still stay by your side, just so you won't feel alone.

It's so good to know that you have someone who'll be willing to help you cope up in every frustrations you're having. Every depressing moments, every down moments, every self-worthless-realization moments, he'd be there, not because you want someone to be with you, but because he wants to be with you.
It's great to know when a person appreciates every little thing you do. Even a smile would mean a lot to him, just because you own that smile. And that even if no words are expressed as long as the eyes understand, you'd be able to communicate, just like that.

It's more grateful to know that someone is grateful to have you. We don't choose the people who enter our lives, so it must be luck that you have that person, then you have to be thankful. It may just be coincidence or fate, but whatever the reason is, you have to be thankful in having him the same way he is thankful for having you.

It's a wonderful feeling when you're on the verge of giving up the things you've worked hard for, someone isn't just helping you carry the weight on your shoulders, but he carries it on his own because he'd also be in pain when you are in pain. And then you'll realize, trials would all be worth it as long as you have him, not because he would do things for you, but because you gather all the strength you need, in him and his love.

It's a superb feeling when one is willing to take the risks just so you'll be happy. Unselfishness rule in him just so happiness would take over you.

It's a nice feeling that when you're apart, and days seem to be long, that person misses you. Yes, you might feel bad about not being with each other, but knowing that you feel the same way would drive those blues away, thinking, you'd fight over that feeling because you're looking forward to seeing each other, and that's something to be happy about.
It's a great feeling when he wants to be with you because of the happiness you have when you're together. That even if corny jokes and senseless stories are told, it won't matter as long as you're together.

It's a lovely feeling when someone thinks about your future, with or without him. He cares and he cares enough to think of you and what you'll be someday. But of course, he also wants to be in it someday.
It's a nice feeling when you can be who you really are with that person. No pretentions, no lies, no hypocrisy, because he accepts you for who you are. You can be funny, you can be embarrased, but it won't matter coz it doesn't matter to him. Trust and faith in each other keeps you alive. And it will always do.

It's good to know that you have someone who'll not have the intentions of breaking your heart. Instead, he would be willing to mend it, picking up the broken pieces of your heart that your past love have scattered in the ground. He may not be able to put the pieces back to where they really belong, but you shouldn't mind, because he had repaired that heart of yours, and he fixed it in his own way. He loves you in his own way, not the way your past did. He fixed your heart in a different way, to keep you from feeling the pains of your past heartache and to make you feel, the love, that he's unselfishly giving.
It's a great feeling when that person has every effort to let you feel what he feels for you. Because of the distractions, you may not hear him shout it to the world, but as long as you feel it, his efforts has paid off, big time. And when you feel the same way too... He'd feel as if he's the luckiest person alive.

... when in fact, you're more blessed to have him.

If One day

2010-10-18T21:49:00.000-07:00

If one day you feel like crying.. noone hears you..
Call me..
I don't promise that i'll make you laugh
but i can cry with you

If one day you want to run away.
don't be afraid to call me..
I don't promise to ask you to stop
but i can run with you

If one day you won't listen to anyone
call me..
I don't promise to be there for you
but i promise to be very quiet

But if one day you call me
and there is no answer
come fast to see me
perhaps i need you...

The Picture about L-O-V-E

2010-10-17T07:10:00.000-07:00

Love is Physical Attraction
Love is a Big Hug

Holding hands

Love is dancing without a music

Love is Fireworks

Love is Family

Love is Friendship

Love is You.. Beautiful

Love is You and Me

Love is no longer you and me.. but

Love is Timeless

Love is Willing to Give or ...

2010-10-10T17:13:00.000-07:00

"One is Loved because One is Loved. No reason needed for loving" -Paulo Coelho

I Love this Words from Paulo..

Hari itu hujan dan malam itu aku mengantarkan seorang teman untuk jalan-jalan. Di sisi jalan kami didatangi oleh seorang anak yang meminta uang kepada kami, aku mengeluarkan selembar uang 1000 rupiah dan menyerahkan uang itu ke tangannya yang basah karena kehujanan.

Pulangnya kami lewat jalan yang sama tengah malam dan kami melihat dia sudah berpakaian rapi dan makan di restoran yang terhitung lumayan mahal bagi kantong kami (sebagai mahasiswa)

Temanku mengumpat-umpat namun aku justru menemukan apa arti pemberian itu sebenarnya.. dan cinta...
i would love to say that i learnt much from life..

Apa yang kamu pikir tentang cinta?
is that take and Give?

aku kurang setuju..
sama seperti apa yang terjadi malam itu.
aku memberi anak itu.
tanpa tau dia mau menggunakan untuk apa, untuk siapa dan apakah dia berbohong padamu atau tidak..
bukan karena dia bilang "aku membutuhkanmu"
bukan karena dia menangis padamu
bukan karena kamu mengenalnya.
aku memberinya uang bukan karena suatu alasan.

so i found this similarity..
cinta tidak membuatmu berharap bahwa kamu akan diterima oleh dia
cinta bukan berarti kamu inginkan sesuatu dari dirinya
cinta bukan berarti kamu ingin sesuatu dari dia untuk diubah
but it always end with no reason..

"One is Loved Because One is Loved"

I Want to Be Her Favorite Hello and The Hardest Goodbye

2010-10-03T16:40:00.000-07:00

Timeless Don't let it fade out of sight
Just let the moments sweep us both away
Lifting us to where
We both agree
It's just timeless
It's just timeless

Love
Timeless-Kelly Clarkson

Love isn't the future to seek
love isn't the past that you revealed
Love is a polaroid
Just 2 colours on it
black or white?
Happy or Sad

Yet i know that in this world. it's very hard to find your true love.
my Brother said that the "True Love" is just an imaginary.
yes i don't fully agreed but i just about to know what he mean.

That Love is just imaginary for me.. it's far away and unreach
some people says that "someday you will found your way on love"
I don't think so..

I think Love is love
yeah L-Onelyness
O-blivious
it's V-ertiginous
and E-laborated

The Professor wrote "a woman without her man is nothing" Me: would write "a woman, without her man, is nothing" She would Write "A woman: Without her, man is nothing"
but I believed one thing..
Women and Man are created to complete on each other..
I know my Love..
wherever You are.. No matter How scrubby and umeant i am,
I would left some small memory to her.
And She left me with all of Our memories..

So would you be my greatest hellow and the hardest goodbye?

It Is Always Better to Have Loved on Someone and Lost Than Never to Have Loved At All

2010-08-17T05:44:00.000-07:00

There was this guy who believed very much in true love and decided to take his time to wait for his right girl to appear. He believed that there would definitely be someone special out there for him, but none came.
Every year at Christmas, his ex-girlfriend would return from Vancouver to look him up. He was aware that she still held some hope of re-kindling the past romance with him. He did not wish to mislead her in any way. So he would always get one of his girl friends to pose as his steady whenever she came back. That went on for several years and each year, the guy would get a different girl to pose as his romantic interest. So whenever the ex-girlfriend came to visit him, she would be led into believing that it was all over between her and the guy. The girl took all those rather well, often trying to casually tease him about his different girlfriends, or so, as it seemed! In fact, the girl often wept in secret whenever she saw him with another girl, but she was too proud to admit it. Still, every Christmas, she returned, hoping to re-kindle some form of romance. But each time, she returned to Vancouver feeling disappointed.

Finally she decided that she could not play that game any longer. Therefore, she confronted him and professed that after all those years, he was still the only man that she had ever loved. Although the guy knew of her feelings for him, he was still taken back and have never expected her to react that way. He always thought that she would slowly forget about him over time and come to terms that it was all over between them. Although he was touched by her undying love for him and wanted so much to accept her again, he remembered why he rejected her in the first place-she was not the one he wanted. So he hardened his heart and turned her down cruelly. Since then, three years have passed and the girl never return anymore. They never even wrote to each other. The guy went on with his life..... still searching for the one but somehow deep inside him, he missed the girl.

On the Christmas of 1995, he went to his friend's party alone. "Hey, how come all alone this year? Where are all your girlfriends? What happened to that Vancouver babe who joins you every Christmas?", asked one of his friend. He felt warm and comforted by his friend's queries about her, still he just surged on.
Then, he came upon one of his many girlfriends whom he once requested to pose as his steady. He wanted so much to ignore her ..... not that he was impolite, but because at that moment, he just didn't feel comfortable with those girlfriends anymore. It was almost like he was being judged by them. The girl saw him and shouted across the floor for him. Unable to avoid her, he went up to acknowledge her.

"Hi......how are you? Enjoying the party?" the girl asked.

"Sure.....yeah!", he replied.
She was slightly tipsy..... must be from the whiskey on her hand. She continued,
"Why...? Don't you need someone to pose as your girlfriend this year?" Then he answered, "No, there is no need for that anymore......"
Before he can continue, he was interrupted, "Oh yes! Must have found a girlfriend! You haven't been searching for one for the past years, right?" The man looked up, as if he has struck gold, his face beamed and looked directly at the drunken girl. He replied, "Yes......you are right! I haven't been looking for anyone for the past years."
With that, the man darted across the floor and out the door, leaving the lady in much bewilderment. He finally realized that he has already found his dream girl, and she was.....the Vancouver girl all along! The drunken lady has said something that awoken him.

All along he has found his girl. That was why he did not bother to look further when he realized she was not coming back. It was not any specific girl he was seeking! It was perfection that he wanted, and yes.....perfection!!
Relationship is something both parties should work on. Realizing that he had let away someone so important in his life, he decided to call her immediately. His whole mind was flooded with fear. He was afraid that she might have found someone new or no longer had the same feelings anymore..... For once, he felt the fear of losing someone.

As it was Christmas eve, the man was quite hard to get through, especially an overseas call. He tried again and again, never giving up. Finally, he got through......precisely at 12.00 midnight. He confessed his love for her and the girl was moved to tears. It seemed that she never got over him! Even after so long, she was still waiting for him, never giving up.

He was so excited to meet her and to begin his new chapter of their lives. He decided to fly to Vancouver to join her. It was the happiest time of their lives! But their happy time was short-lived. Two days before he was supposed to fly to Vancouver, he received a call from her father. She had a head-on car collision with a drunken driver. She passed away after 6 hours in a coma.
The guy was devastated, as it was a complete loss. Why did fate played such cruel games with him? He cursed the heaven for taking her away from him, denying even one last look at her! How cruel he cursed! How he damned the Gods...!! How he hated himself....for taking so long to realize his mistake!! That was in 1996.

The moral of this story is :
Treasure what you have...
Time is too slow for those who wait;
Too swift for those who fear;
Too long for those who grief;
Too short for those who rejoice;
But for those who love...
Time is Eternity.

For all you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime. You may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late.. Just Like ME.

my Fam's

2010-06-08T06:00:00.000-07:00

Akhirnya saya bisa melupakan wanita yang saya benar-benar sayang. Fiuh... Dia tidak pernah mencintai saya, bahkan mungkin tidak ingin saya ada di kehidupannya. Namun saya teramat mencintainya.

Hal yang membuatku agak melupakan saat bersamanya ialah karena faktor keluarga saya yang sangat mendukung apapun langkah saya. 

Menyenangkan dan melegakan, harus kuakui tidak ada yang lebih menyenangkan mempunyai keluarga “gila’ seperti ini. Ayah saya tergolong orang yang sangat menyenangkan, selalu menyenangkan saat dia berpura-pura berbisik kepadamu namun ternyata tangannya menggelitik perutku. Dia selalu membuatku tertawa sewaktu dia menari dangdut, atau mengatakan lelucon kecil tentang keluarga dan dunia ini kepadaku.

Dia dulu seorang perokok dan pemabuk, namun sekarang dia begitu taat di gereja dan beribadah. Benar-benar membanggakan punya ayah sepertinya.

Adik lelaki saya? Seorang playboy dan pemain basketball. Sering juara dan saya sendiri menikmati masa kecil bersama dengan kenakalan-kenakalan dan perbagai hal menyenangkan. Saya masih ingat ketika dia bermain layang-layang bersama saya, dikurung di luar rumah karena pernah bermain sampai malam, bersepeda dan terjatuh bersama. Penakut. Hahaha. Bahkan dia, sampai saat ini masih sering mengajak saya atau pembantu saya untuk menenaminya ke kamar mandi.

Saya juga memilik adik perempuan sekarang. Yah meskipun dia tidak tergabung dalam keluarga kandung saya, namun saya menyayanginya seperti adik saya sendiri. Terkadang saya tertawa melihat ulahnya. Centil, usil dan jail, namun terkadang baik hati. Punya koleksi kutek, dan gelang segudang. Dia sangat menyukai lagu dari Ridho Irama dan kadang saya tertawa melihat dia menyanyikan lagu itu. Hahaha. What a great moment! Hal yang sangat menggelikan ialah jika ia belajar. Saya selalu menemaninya belajar. Sewaktu belajar IPS, saya pernah menanyakan tentang apa ciri kebudayaan Minang diliat dari rumah adat dan profesi mereka.

Seharusnya jawabannya: punya rumah Gadang, dan profesinya Bertani dan berdagang.

Namun dia malah jawab, Rumah adatnya Rumah Tani dan begadang. Hahahaha.

Namun saya paling sayang dengan Ibu saya. Ya, saya anak mami! Banyak orang yang bilang saya begitu, namun anehnya saya malah senang. Ibu saya sendiri ialah orang yang sangat menghibur, yah, meskipun terkadang agak bawel, namun aku mengerti bahwa dia selalu menginginkan yang terbaik untukku. Kejadian mengerikan menimpa Ibu saya kemarin. Dia terkena serangan jantung dan harus dilarikan ke rumah sakit, persis sebelum hari ulang tahunnya ke 50. Tekanan darahnya terus turun dari 130/80, 110,70, hingga sampai 60/40. Hanya satu kalimat yang kubisikkan ke telinganya, “Jangan tinggal aku dulu, tunggu hingga aku dapat memberi cucu untukmu”. Mama saya seolah bangkit melawan penyakit itu, bahkan dia tidak perlu masuk ICU.

Mama saya sudah sehat sekarang. Thank’s God.

Untuk Mama tersayang, Happy Birthday Mom.

Menyenangkan mempunyai keluarga seperti kalian.

Alasan Kenapa Cowok Berselingkuh

2010-05-20T16:44:00.000-07:00

Halooooo, lama ta berjumpa, kini super Gil akan membeberkan rahasia tentang perselingkuhan setajam-tajamnya, sperti Silet.. (nada ngomong Feni Rose). Oke dimuali dari kasus 1 dan berujung pada kasus ke 7.. Enjoy!

Cewek yang suka mengekang si Cowok.

Cewek selalu memaksa si cowok keluar dari zona nyaman dan kebiasaan mereka. Contohnya:

Ce : Honey, anterin aku pergi ke pesta dong!

Co: Sambil menonton televisi *diam*

Ce: ARRRGGHHH.. cepetttt. *mematikan televisi*

Co: Yah mulai lagi.. kembaliin dong remotenya!

PLETAK *Kepala si co Benjol*

Cewek Yang Lebih Dominan

Seringkali saya melihat si cowok membawakan tas atau belanjaan si cowok. Sewaktu si cewek bertemu temannya, si cowok mulai diacuhkan. Si cowok selalu di belakang si cewek.

Sewaktu masuk ke mobil, si cowok mengelap sandaran tempat duduk sambil berkata, “silahkan..”

Cewek Penggosip

Si cewek mulai ngobrol masalah ini itu, dari gosip kalangan RT sampai gosip internasional.

Istri 1: Eh, tau ga Linda, Janda yang tinggal di rumah baru. Ada yang bilang kalo suaminya meninggal waktu muda. Kecelakaan. Katanya si suaminya dapet penghargaan dari negara.

Istri 2: Ah, masa sih? Kok Aye ga tau?

Istri 3: Setauku itu rumah yang dikasi sama simpanannya dia.

Istri 1,2 : Masa sih?

Istri 4 menimpali: Bukan, dia suka pake baju sexy biar dilirik ma Cowok-cowok

Istri 1,2,3: IH, Kita harus dandan yang cantik biar suami kita ga direbut.

Istri 4: Iya pokonya jangan mau kalah Jeng

Dihadapan cewek. Hero bisa jadi Zero! Dalam sekejap, citra istri pahlawan bisa jadi istri simpanan! Hahahah.

Cewek Yang Berubah-ubah Sikap, kalo marah Brutal

Liat kasus di nomer 1.

Sewaktu di Mobil

Cowok: Jangan Marah dong. Gitu aja kok marah sich?

Cewek: *diem sesaat*

Cowok: Jawab dong..

Cewek: SIAPA YANG MARAH?? KAMU KALI!!!!!!!

Cowok: iya... iya.. aku salah aku minta maaf deh.

Cewek: PERCUMA.. BUBUR UDAH MENJADI NASI!

Cowok: Nasi sudah menjadi bubur maksudnya? *sotoy*

Cewek: BISA DIEM GA????? KEPALAKU TU PUSING. AKU GAG MARAH TAUUUUUU!!! *Berubah menjadi Super Saiya III*

Cowok: Okey2. *merinding* Trus sekarang jadi pergi ke pesta temenmu kan? Di gedung mana?

Cewek: UDAH GA MOOD. Anterin aku pulang! Aku mau nonton Televisi aja di rumah.

Cowok: *menjambak rambutnya sendiri, ngelus dada* ... hening

Si cowok dijamin mati muda ngadepin tipe cewek kaya gini.

Selalu Memperdebatkan Masalah Sepele, Cemburuan, Posesif

Sudah umum jika hanya gara-gara siklus bulanan (menstruasi) bisa bikin cowoknya frustasi. Gimana enggak, kalo semisal gini.

Co: *ngeliat ke cewek lain*

Ce: *ngeliat ke cowoknya*

Co: *senyum sambil cengar-cengir ke ceweknya*

Ce: *senyum ketus ke cowoknya*, sambil bilang, “Aku pulang naik taksi”

Nyadar ga si cewek kalo kadang kita tu ga pernah macem-macem sebenernya ma cewek laen, keadaan dari 1-7 di sinilah yang membuat cowok selingkuh.

ADA TANTANGAN LAIN, dasar emang si cowoknya ga setia.

Jujur aja deh, apa yang ada di pikiran cowok? APA YANG COWOK CARI DI HIDUPNYA PADA MASA MUDANYA? Tantangan!

Jika dia sudah mendapat pacar yang cantik, kaya raya, punya temen banyak apa si cowok bahagia, BELUM TENTU! Kadang si cowok malah bisa ngelirik cewek lain, hanya untuk perasaan dag dig dug sewaktu nembak.

Faktor lain orang selingkuh mungkin juga, karena si cowok emang buaya, ada kesempatan, mengapa tidak cari tantangan lain, toh ada juga orang yang justru suka bagian waktu umpet-umpetan sama pacarnya. Hahaha.

Karena ada cewe lain yang lebih cantik dan pintar (liat alasan ce dr 1-5)

notes dari seorang pengusaha Bob Sadino: "Selingkuh itu indah"

Btw, Aku blm pernah selingkuh, pengen nyoba, tapi siapa juga yang mau diselingkuhin.
^^

Hujan Membawa Bayangmu Pergi

2010-04-01T23:55:00.000-07:00

“Maukah kamu jadi kekasihku??

“…”’

Laki-laki itu bingung, baru saja ia melakukan kesalahan. Benarkah itu kejujuran, atau apakah diam berarti "iya" untuk pertanyaannya?
Lelaki itu menggaruk kepalanya, menunggu memang sebuah pekerjaan yang membosankan, apapun itu, perempuan itu muram.
Mungkin tidak tahu apa yang bisa diucapkan demi menutupi perasaannya sendiri, takut, gelisah dan juga kasihan.

5 menit berlalu tanpa jawaban..

"Okey, aku hanya bercanda,ini April Mop, ingat?" Sang lelaki tertawa

Lega.. si perempuan hanya tersenyum sambil berkata... "Kau menyebalkan!"

Dalam hati, si pria berkata, “Aku menyebalkan, karenamu. Aku sebal karena tidak berkata saja yang sejujurnya di hari ini”.

***

Perempuan itu menghela napas, masih terlihat wajahnya yang elok.

Lelaki itu bersamaan dengan itu berkata, “ummm, soal yang kemarin itu, maafkan aku ya? Aku tidak bermaksud membuatmu jengkel, lagipula mana mungkin aku jatuh cinta padamu? Kamu bukan tipeku”

Perempuan itu tertawa, sambil berkata, “Kalau aku mati hanya karena sakit jantung apa yang kamu lakukan?”

Laki-laki itu hanya menggumam “… entah harus sedih atau senang kalau engkau mati”

“Oya, dasar!, tapi memang kemarin aku sudah berpikir, apakah engkau yang tidak bias serius ini mampu mengatakan hal seperti itu pada seorang wanita?”

“Tentu saja, jika hal ini tentangmu aku rela berkata apa saja” Kata pria itu, tetapi ia memilih menjawab “Padahal aku ingin membuatmu takluk dihadapanku, aku ingin kamu berkata YA, kemudian aku akan tertawa terbahak-bahak melihat wajah polosmu itu.”

“Itu tidak akan terjadi” Perempuan itu tertawa.

“MENGAPA TIDAK?” tetapi sang lelaki memilih untuk diam. Menghela napas panjang.

“Ya, itu tidak mungkin terjadi, lagian, kamu manja, galak, ga cantik, ga cocok untuk aku yang ganteng ini.”

Aku telah banyak berbohong hari ini

‘Hahahah, ganteng???”

“Iya, aku kan memang terlahir ganteng”

“NO…. kalau kamu ganteng, maka semua pria di dunia ini super ganteng”

“Tapi tetap saja ganteng kan?”

Ayolah aku tidak ingin berdebat pada hal tidak penting ini.

“Iya-ya, kamu ganteeenngg banget. Tapi kumel”

“Hahahaha” Lelaki itu tertawa kecut

“Hujan nich, sudah dulu yah, Bye”

“Perlu aku antar?”

“Tidak perlu, thank’s” Perempuan itu menyetop taksi, masuk ke dalam. “Kamu hati-hati ya?’

Belum sampai sang lelaki menyahut, sang Perempuan telah menghilang di balik hujan.

****

Lelaki itu terlelap, masih terbayang bagaimana dia menyangkal bahwa dia sangat menyayangi perempuan itu,

Namun ada sesuatu hal yang tidak sempat dia bilang.

Dia menulis sesuatu:

“Selalu, aku rasa,

kita akan bercakap dalam senyap

Dengan bahasa langit yang hanya kita yang tahu

serta menyemai setiap harap yang kerap datang mengendap

lalu meresapinya ke hati dengan getir

Selalu, aku rasa,

kamu tersenyum disana, ketika akupun tersenyum disini

dan kita, dengan bahasa langit yang kita punya itu,

secara bersahaja, menyapa larik-larik kenangan

dan meniti setiap selasar waktu

bersama desir rindu menoreh kalbu

Selalu, aku rasa,

kita tak dapat menafikan

batas yang membentang

dimana jarak membingkainya lalu menjadikannya nyata

serta membuat kita sadar

bahwa pada akhirnya,

dalam pilu aku berkata:

“Percayalah, aku ada dinadimu seperti kamu ada didarahku,”bisikku pelan..

ketika bayangmu, perlahan memudar dibalik rinai hujan..”

Tong-Twist-er

2010-03-02T23:35:00.000-08:00

"I wish to wish the wish you want to wish, but if you wish the wish the witch wishes, I won’t wish the wish you wish to wish.”

Mungkin kalian pernah dengar tentang tongue twister. Nah buat yang jarang baca buku, pasti blum tau artinya kan? Tongue twister adalah kata-kata yang sulit diutarakan,
Baik karena keselip di lidah atau kemampuan verbal (biasanya si pronunciation) yang kurang dari seseorang.

Pertanyaannya: trus ngapain kita harus ngelatih lidah kita dengan kalimat-kalimat “tongue twister” yang sangat sulit?

Ja-Wa -baN: BIAR LU GA MALU-MALUIN. Gue kenal 2 orang dekat yang sangat “menghibur” sewaktu mereka mengucapkan kata-kata yang sulit. Yang pertama adalah my papi . Contoh paling nyata, sewaktu gw bli hape. Dan kamu jadi ribut gara-gara kekonyolan papiku.

Papi: Kamu bli hape apa?

Ganteng: Beli hape “blackberry-blackberryan” dar China

Papi: Oh, itu CDMA apa BMX? (Oh, itu CDMA pa GSM?, mengherankan bagaimana GSM bisa jadi sepeda, masi wajar...)

Ganteng: GSM maksudnya? Hahahahah, papi tuh.. bukan Bmx tp GSM! Hahahhah.

Papi: Apik ya? Merek e apa td Stroberry?( Bagus ya? Mereknya apa tadi ,blackberry? Sudah mulai off topic...)

G: Ya amplop! (sambil membenamkan tangan ke kepala), Blackberry pi! Bukan strobery, itu mah buah. Yang ini mah canggih sim cardnya aja bisa dua.

P: Ohhh, hahahha. Papi ra mudeng masalah gitu an. Boleh pinjem buat telepon dong, kan...apa namanya td? Kart sim, eh bukan ding, karcisnya kan dua. Kartunya apa? Merpati? (sim card ->>> karcis, Mentari->>> Merpati) , OMG!!!!!!!!!!

Orang kedua yang parah adalah adek cewe gue yang masi klas 1 smp, si E (gw sembunyiin identitasnya, nti dia marah, dan aku ga pengen itu terjadi, karena kalo dia marah, dia berubah jd demit yang makan bulan dan alam semesta,dunia berubah jadi kiamat).

E: ko, lagunya user yang bagus apa?
G: ???????????
Dia dengan brutalnya.. memanggil Usher (pengucapan asyer) dengan Puser tanpa p, (pengucapan user)

Pernah juga dia sulit mengucap profesional->>>> persifional, presisional, prefisional!
Ampe salah 3 kali pula.

Inilah mengapa terasa penting belajar bahasa Inggris usia dini. Hihihihi.
Ato scene laennya.. gue disuru ngisi kuesioner yang berhadiah printer ama adek gw yg laen:
Si E nyeletuk
“YEEEEE, koko ngisi kuis milioner...
Ntar aku dikasi ya ko kalo menang?”

Serumah ngakak.

Anyhow...
My favorite’s tongue twister:
“Mary mac’s mother’s making Mary Mac marry me.
My mother’s making me marry Mary Mac
Will i always be so merry when Mary’s taking care of me?
Will i always be so merry when i marry Marry Mac?”
From a song by Carbon Leaf

What about you? Have ever experienced with the stupid conversation like me?

The Woman I Called Sister

2010-02-03T19:41:00.000-08:00

PIC Source: www.penguin.com.au/covers-jpg/97...1947.jpg

To be apart of my sister like mine Is so divine,
Where love is shown
Hurt is shared, our love for each other is never impaired

“We talk..
We laugh
We cry..
But we are a family and we do it all together
For I as a family we do it as one..”

...
You are a joy that can’t be taken away
Once you enter my life, you are there to stay..
A friend who helps through difficult times
Your comforting words are worth much more than dimes
A partner who fills my life with laughs and smiles..
These memories last for miles and miles.

My sis’ is a blessing, who fills my heart with love
She flies with me in life with the beauty of dove.
Whether I am having my ups and downs,
Again.. you always help me with a smile and never frown

With a sister you cannot have a grudge, She is as sweet as chocolate and as smooth as fudge.

Having friend is not just a trend. It is knowing you can always turn to her,
your best friend…

Dedicated to my sisters..
Happy, Melia, Yosie, Elin..

Wherever you are..

Message to Santa

2009-12-25T21:09:00.000-08:00

Oh! You better watch out
You better not cry
You better not pout
I'm telling you why
Santa claus is comin' to town
He's making a list
and checking it twice
You gonna find out
who's naughty or nice

Santa claus is comin' to town!
He sees you when you are sleeping.
He knows when you're awake.
He knows when you've been bad or good.
So be good for godness sake!

Hahaha.. nice song.. lagu ini pernah menjadi sangat bermakna pada saat aku masih kecil.
Aku pernah dengan bodohnya mempercayai bahwa Santa Claus benar-benar ada pada saat aku masih sangat kecil.

Terlebih dengan kakak perempuanku yang juga bercerita tentang keajaiban Santa Claus yang menunggang rusa terbang sambil tertawa Hohoho!

Kelihatan tidak terlalu pintar... tetapi lucu.. itu yang diucapkan orang ketika melihatnya.

Berjenggot putih, sehingga mengundang ketakutan beberapa anak, dan memancing beberapa anak nakal untuk menjambak jenggot putihnya.

Berperut gendut, karena kebanyakan makan kalkun. Sangat beruntung dia masih mampu melewati berbagai cerobong asap yang sempit.

Memilik catatan tentang semua anak-anak di dunia ini.
Anak-anak yang bertingkah baik dan yang nakal.

Aku masih ingat banyak sekali anak-anak yang benar-benar mengirim surat kepadanya. Entah meminta hadiah/ mainan kepadanya atau mungkin minta maaf agar tidak didatangi pit hitam.
Hahahhah, masa kecil yang menyenangkan untuk diingat.

Aku? Hahahha, pernah berpikir untuk mengirim surat kepada Santa Claus tapi urung karena tidak tahu alamat Santa Claus.
Berhenti mempercayai Santa ketika berumur 6 tahun, ketika melihat berbagai pajangan Santa dipajang di etalase toko dan bertanya kepada ibu apa Santa benar-benar ada.
Ibuku menghancurkan impianku dengan berkata bahwa Santa Claus tidaklah benar ada.

Later, mungkin masih banyak anak yang bermimpi untuk bertemu Santa Claus. Kuharap mereka tidak membaca blogku.
Keep dreamin'.
Be a good boy.
Keep hopin' for Santa to come.
We wish you a merry Chrismast Santa!
Santa don't be late to comes.
Time for toys
And times for cheers

(NB: Jika Santa benar-benar datang.. atau jika engkau bertemu dengannya di suatu tempat. Tolong tanyakan apakah ada sebuah hadiah untukku.)

My Fighting

2009-12-10T05:14:00.000-08:00

There was my fighting,

my fighting with someone

Everytime we fought in the dark

And I never win

Then myself full of frightened and worried

Sadness and anger

Envious and hate

And hopeless finally came to me

he said to me with smile,

stop do everything,

‘you just spend your time, energy, and everything is useless,

because of that, stop to try’

I was absorbed... in his flattery

Fell into hole of emptiness without hope

And asked to myself

Repeat the same question,

is everything useless?

every my effort?

I remembered what I have done,

my last fighting,

where is I lose,

an absolute lose and showered down painfully

But above of all,

I developed slowly,

grew and deceived my match

I knew there was two sides in myself,

Side that wanted me to stop do everything,

And side that wanted me not to stop until I win

Finally I choosed,

I won’t stop,

until my last breath disappeared

unite with last life air

But now,

my eyes open widely,

get the reality

After my long fighting,

finally I win,

defeat my hardly match

And when the sun brights,

clean the long gloomy night,

I am very suprise,

see my match,

myself that lose,

myself that same with me but different with me,

myself that is myself but also is not myself

There is a strange feeling in my heart,

and I laugh

And I know

I will never lose again..

Poem created by "Rain"

Fesbuk Alam Gaib

2009-12-01T05:58:00.000-08:00

hehehehh, berhubung saia lg byk kerjaan dan ga punya byk waktu... jd jarang posting maaf yah!

btw, gw kasi yg ini ajah! moga2 menghibur...

^^

di zoom aja gambarnya soalnya blog gw temaptnya kaga muat... heheheh

Jolin Tsai ft. Nick - Da Zhang Fu (Real Man) mp3 download

2009-11-25T18:22:00.000-08:00

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Wo zhen de gao bu tai dong ni zen me hui xuan ze ji mo
I just don't really get it, why would you choose to be lonely

yao de tong tong dou you jiu shao le na yi ge nan peng you
You've got everything you want, you just need a boyfriend

ni hai yao ging duo jiu ni dao di tiao shen me
How long you gonna hold out for, what're you being so picky about?

ting bi shuo de duo bu pa wo luo suo
Listens more than he talks, won't think I'm slow

zhi dao wo nan guo pei zhe wo chen mo
Knows when I'm down, stays with me in silence

shou ji zhuo bu zhi you wo hen duo tian mi xiao dong zuo
Only I'm on his cell wallpaper, lots of sweet little gestures

zi ji chi fan mei wei kou shua ka zhi qian xian wen wo
Doesn't have an appetite eating by himself, asks me before he takes out his card

xi huan wo peng you ye hui ai wo de gou
Likes my friends, and will love my dog

dong huan bao ai di qiu bao hu wo xiang ying xiong
Knows about the environment and loving the earth, protects me like a hero

zong shi da fang jiu shao wo shen me jie ri dou ji de
Always openly introduces me, remembers every holiday

pei wo jian fei chi ping guo bang wo mai kou hong
Eats apples with me when I'm losing weight, buys lipstick for me

*I don't wanna boyfriend, I need a real man
*I don't wanna boyfriend, I need a real man

cheng shi de zui ke kao de jian wen rou de yan
An honest mouth, a reliable shoulder, gentle eyes

I don't wanna boyfriend, I need a real man
I don't wanna boyfriend, I need a real man

Real man real man real man real man
Real man real man real man real man

he shi chu xian? (x4)
When will he appear? (x4)

hui wan hui gong zuo hui feng hui sheng huo
Knows how to work and play, knows how to be crazy and live life

hui xia chu hui yun dong hui ai hui zuo meng
Knows how to cook and play sports, knows how to love and dream

you xiang nan hai you cheng shu dui wo da fang zi ji kou
Like a boy but also mature, is generous to me but doesn't spend on him self

jiao wo jue zhao da dian dong shen me dou you wo
Teaches me video game tricks, does everything with me

Repeat *

(rap) I be your real man
(rap) I be your real man

he shi chu xian? (x4)
When will he appear? (x4)

wo xian zai you yi dian tong gai zen me jie jue ni ji mo
I understand a little now, how to get rid of your loneliness

ni shuo le liang san fen zhong wo yuan yi huan liang san nian qu zuo
What you talked about for 2 or 3 minutes, I'm willing to take 2 or 3 years to do

ji ran ni ging hen jiu yao bu yao deng deng wo
Since you've been holding out for so long, do you wanna wait for me

da zhang fu shua ku shua wen rou jian bang shen me dou kang de dong
A real man playing cool, acting gentle, he can bear any burden on his shoulders

wo zui chun qing qing dong yi dong jiu zhi dao wo zai xiang shen me
My lips just move slightly and he knows what I'm thinking

just show me one real man
Just show me one real man

shi xiang quan nan real man
A man of ten talents, real man

repeat * (x2)

Tarot Gratis

2009-11-20T21:37:00.000-08:00

The Empress The Death The Hierophant

“At any rate, I am convinced that God does not play dice” – Albert Einstein

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Nature is as it is, it will tell no lies, only purity. It will care for those who care for it and it will destroy those who are destroying it. It can be a friend or foe, and sometimes, nature shows its force without any understandable reason.

Here Is what I’ve learnt from Tarot, the powerful card reading. According to the ancient Romans, a Tarot card reading is what nature sees or saw in us all the time. Nature has always been there since before we were born and will continue on to be there when we cease to exist. Nature would still be there after we are gone, unless it is the time for nature to end.

A person with good understanding of nature, utilize the Tarot cards to help others, in order to obtain certain information which they do not yet know, to better them self in life or to see what went wrong and even try to prevent a bad event from happening

So I have to say that the Tarot Reading isn’t deviating ones. In the era of the great Roman Empire, these cards were recorded in history as one of the cards that was used for playing card games.

Each of the cards have a special picture, numbers and a specific subject which acts as a representation of the natural human characteristics.

The main purpose of Tarot reading was not to foretold or predicts the future. It was also not to justify or to condemn a person to a state of unchangeable events.

Another question may rise, why does the past have to be revealed in the cards?

Past events act as evidence to those who might have doubts about whether the reading is correct or false. The past can also describe the cause of any of the current matter that has already happened or what might happen.

Now if someone asks, can I do it over and over again? Or, why is the second or third reading is somewhat irrelevant?

Yes, logically we can do things over and over again, but then again the result will not be the same as the first one. In many believefs and religions in many civilizations, we also know that the first time of every single thing is the original, the one, the unrepeatable (example; the 1st man on the moon, the 1st man who circle the earth and so on) and the first is always the winner not second, not third. Other than the reference to mathematical law, as for the cause of it, it is still a mystery of life.

Then again, a life without a mystery is not a life at all, is it not...

Sangat banyak Orang tidak mempercayai Ramalan tapi menikmatinya sebagai hiburan yang tentu saja tidak akan menghasilkan apa-apa kecuali sifat menghibur. Mungkin akan lebih baik jika mulai mempercayai ramalan terutama Tarot karena itu akan menghasilkan pola pikir yang positif dan berguna bagi jalan hidup sebenarnya yang kita hadapi.

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2009-11-11T19:25:00.000-08:00

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Thank you for being my mother

2009-11-11T18:27:00.000-08:00

A Mothers Love
To some love is just a word
To me it's a feeling, A feeling
I get everytime I look into your eyes
A feeling I get when I realize you're my mom
A mom who loves, shares, A mom who inspires
Unconditionally
What's that?
That's love
A mothers love, but only you would know
And me..
You returned that love time and time again
Possibly to much, nevertheless you did
Thank-you
Thank-you for being there when I needed you most
For being my rock when I should have been yours
Thank-you for believing in me, even when I doubted myself
For being the one person I could trust
No matter what, no matter where
But most of all thank-you for being you-my mom
A mom I am so proud to claim
I love you
Now and forever...

Untukku ini hanyalah sebuah pasir di tengah pantai..

bagiku engkau sudah seperti ibuku sendiri... ibu yang melindungiku, menyayangiku..

engkau adalah alasan untuk aku selalu melakukan yang terbaik..

Bahkan disaat yang paling sulit pun engkau selalu ada..
Mungkin aku hanya bermimpi untuk memiliki ibu sepertimu, tapi mengapa begitu terasa kasihmu untukku dan keluargaku??

Thank you..

thank you for being my mother, Tante Liliana...

or should I called you Mom now???

Rumahku

2009-11-06T17:11:00.000-08:00

Apa arti rumah bagimu?
Sekedar bangunan ‘kah?
Hanya sebagai tempat tinggal?
Atau bahkan malah tempat berkumpul segala masalah?

Aku memang tak tahu,
seperti apa rumahmu,
bagaimana kau dibesarkan,
bagaimana kau tumbuh dan berkembang

Namun bagiku,
rumah lebih dari segalanya,
tempat kubelajar pertama kali,
tempat kumenuangkan perasaanku,
tempat kumelepas lelah,
tempat di mana aku bisa menjadi diriku sendiri,
tempat yang bisa mengembalikan senyumku yang tlah menjadi kenangan,
dan tempat ku selalu berpulang,
yang disambut senyum orang-orang yang kucintai

Rumahku,
satu-satunya di dunia ini,
tidak akan pernah tergantikan,
dan kuharap begitu juga bagimu

Poem: by my lit'l sis "Rain"